tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78574883797095017982024-03-13T03:46:36.555+02:00Thoughts and Confessions of a Testosterone Addict!Don't you feel sometimes that you want to pause your life, take a deeper look and record many things you are experimenting even the utterly trivial ones of it?
Well, this is the place/space where I'm able to do that and steam out my thoughts, confessions, observations and events that had an impact on my life in a way or two!Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.comBlogger92125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-60978020392847378922013-02-13T11:03:00.001+02:002013-02-13T11:08:53.443+02:00ɹǝpuǝɹɹnS<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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رُب عابد هواه رأى خياله في المرآة وحسبه إياه ، فترك ما عداه ولم يتعداه ، ظناً منه أن ذاته مولاه ، إذ لم ير شيئاً سواه ، وقامت بشبهة شكوكه دعواه ، فأعمته عن عماه ، فقال : أنا الله<br />
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You sometimes feel like a foreigner who does not belong to the world, to its laws, and its concerns. The rules of life in society are not necessarily yours. You are interested in what is unknown and in the subtle laws of a hidden order. So, you take malicious pleasure in ridiculing the patterns you find too simplistic or too rigid. You also revel in underlining the limits of explanations you deem too common. There is something unconventional about the way you are, the way you think, and the way you act. What is your specificity made of? Is it an extraordinary partner? A life off the beaten path? Or do you only distance yourself from conventional morals? In any case, you have the feeling, sometimes quite vague, that you come from nowhere, that you do not belong to any definite group and that you refuse how full of flaws the world was handed down to you...So why are you starring so deep at me now? Looking for someone you thought you knew? Do you think standing as an observer in that medium between life/reality & death/end changed how you perceive yourself and others?</div>
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You do have an intuitive understanding of the people in your world. You get what makes them tick. You are able to easily identify their weaknesses and their strengths, and to tailor your advice to fit their unique personalities. But on the other hand that made you craving more power and since you can control so much in your environment, you have a hard time understanding why others can't. So when people fail you, you assume malevolent purposes awakening feelings of anger and helplessness in even the simpler of situations like what I show to you in my rear view while your instinctive hands are mastering the driving wheel with a smirk on your face!</div>
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You have become this liberal, multicultural, multilingual and polysexual entity. You cannot be simplified in order to conform to existing models, you remain clear-sighted and sceptical about human constructions such as associations, couples, encounters, and exchanges. You understand the illusory nature of social codes. But also you're still a loner, and even with family members and friends, you instinctively keeps your distance and unfortunately making it exhausting for yourself and others to relate, to the extent that they doubt whether you really wrote all of that for example! </div>
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Destruction & reinvention, among other things, allow you to reconstruct and to regenerate parts of your personality or whole stretches of your life, provided that you manage to funnel/vessel its wild energy and to step back. It is impossible to tame this energy, given its essence. However, it is possible to take advantage of it for a precise aim, through a temporary identification of some parts of you with this energy. In such a case, the outcome is your final evolution and even, your transformation.</div>
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So isn't it about time you cut off needless socialising and dysfunctional relationships that has been going on in the same pattern for years now? As you couldn't still overcome one of the major difficulties of this dominant, which is to get people to accept your difference and to smoothly fit into your Ego-ideal environment. Then thou shalt no longer write about a scene/community that you no longer care for or part of.</div>
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You know me well, you chose to call me <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2012/11/objects-in-me-are-closer-than-they.html" target="_blank">Iyoden</a> to make it easier for others to follow. We all listen to something or someone; a conscious, an instinct, a vibe, a feeling and whatever keeps you on track when you need more than cold logic to define you or sustain you.</div>
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You were sitting on a sandy white beach, the sun warming your skin. As the waves slowly broke in the distance, they sent ripples to the shoreline to softly caress your Achilles. So, <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2012/10/play-dead.html" target="_blank">Iyoden</a>, do you remember the first conversation you had with your broken reflection on water? When you noticed how much you prefer to stand on earth with heat and air, meters away from the façade of the water underworld. Of course I remember, it was when I first tried to get outside my idyllic fantasy self and take a good look at my over-developed ego from an outsider direction.<br />
And it helped you when you felt as though you had fallen into a rut, becoming a bit anti-social, choosing to hibernate below the simplicity rather than socialize for different reasons; maybe you had a lot to think about, or a lot on your agenda. But all of that was usually by choice. Your fire never really faded but when I, your reflection, stopped fanning it for a while it did begin to lose some of its heat.<br />
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But your sensuality is still strong and expresses itself in all life areas. You equally enjoy the pleasures of the senses and those of the mind and you never waste a single bit of a sensation. You take the time to enjoy life, to dream and to follow your imagination. You do not allow anything to disturb these moments of relaxation and calm. Your basic balance stems from these privileged moments where you can daydream at will and “have your head in the clouds”. Many people do not understand such absences and their meaning, which is to regain strength, develop and rejuvenate. These people readily describe you with such <strike>unflattering</strike> terms as apathy and nonchalance. Sadly they don't learn to distinguish between sensuality and emotions...<br />
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You see, when you step outside yourself, you realize that you are the unreliable narrator in the story of your life. And this is because you're unaware of how unaware you are. Don't you know that reality is a construction of the brain and you don't passively receive the outside world, you actively construct your experience moment by moment?<br />
Iyoden, people may wink at me, dance or fornicate with me but they think of sociopathy once dared to talk and open up to me(ME, the part of everyone's universe). But how would they think differently when they believe that their opinions are the result of years of rational, objective analysis? Even though in reality, they are the result of years of paying attention to information that confirmed what they believed, while ignoring information that challenged, provoked and pushed their preconceived notions.<br />
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Iyoden, they are not ready yet for more conversations and revelations to come. They're not like us, they tend to ignore random chance when the results seem meaningful or when they want a random event to have a meaningful cause. Why are they stupidly pulled into the things that line up, and are similar or coincidental, but they ignore everything else thats not?!<br />
Why you keep asking me that Iyoden? I don't claim having all the answers like other almightyS do.<br />
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I believe they're ready but they just need to start cleansing their subconscious, and we both know how. So let's go again!<br />
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Good morning dear Iyoden, how are we feeling today? Is it still all in your hands? Well, for starters you should stop finding it weird that you are talking with your reflection in the mirror, don't you think I know how bad you are with understanding and expressing your emotions? So maybe you'd like to let me be your mirror to the other world, together we will mimic it all....Now...whose mind shall I fuck with today....?<br />
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Iyoden, I am a creature of water, a petit vulcan, hot like Venus, a vessel-ing rainy union of fire and earth, airy is one of the things that I'm not...And in order for him to make a connection with another creature, he needs either passively or actively vessel it out/in. Some call it parasitic, others feel it a passionate infusion but most find it sadistic. But you see, Iyoden, this is how you were created. Your earthy upbringing dozed your emotional understanding like a snail that's protecting a precious tactile Diamant and your firefull distant metaphorsis completed your apathetic nature, making you this fearful fearless person that you are now. Perfect or not, that's not for me to decide, nein?<br />
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All what Iyoden needs is just a vessel, with one he can channel whatever moon mood he's in and mentally act out a déjà-interpretation. He consciously plays on their fears and insecurities and some manage to subconsciously play on his, but the key remains in how quick can you figure out what you see like; is it like an analysis that's flowing flawlessly? Or a simple surface but turbid?<br />
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But why wouldn't you be able to read and feel the dimensions of what's crossing your eyes? After all your hands are trained to feel the scarry knods beneath the skin and your job is to fix abomination or manipulate it. A mechanic of humans, am I?<br />
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Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-39721515169531118682012-03-01T19:02:00.001+02:002012-03-01T19:03:26.706+02:00Ägypten: Urlaub trotz Revolution?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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</div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-73648380795503077112011-12-06T04:38:00.001+02:002012-11-25T02:23:15.168+02:00When moving forward is moving backwards!?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<br />When you don't step outside your idyllic fantasy for a moment and take a good look at how things are in what seems rather comedy than political public stand-up in Egypt, multinational pumping stumbles and moves MENA hubs out of Cairo.<br />When you have to delay your internship year of hospital practice for a year until your father turns 60 so that you would be exempted from your hateful compulsory army service, your calculating mental timetable of your future plans snoozes only on your side because the universe doesn't adhere to a time clock meanwhile, your <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2009/09/your-dick-before-we-click-republished.html" target="_blank">bf</a>'s timing in the plans moves a fair step forward in the "normal world".<br />When you spend more 'mum-is-visiting-until-march' time you get to have space for more interesting grown-ups conversations with your mother, you figure out that you got it many times wrong/hateful as a kid but only now you hear her side of the story so you finally feel more empathetic with the forward her but less with your self-victimizing passive aggressive emotional father.<br />When it's not quite daytime and not quite nighttime while you are making yourself open to messages about your future. This in-between place is symbolic to your life right now; not knowing where - or how - to go to the next step, Escapes from reality can be wonderful detours if only occasionally allowed; past that healthful point, they take a toll on your well-being.<br />When you electrify whatever room you walk into, you should finally believe that if you are entertaining angry or vengeful thoughts about someone - even if you never show your anger or seek revenge on that person - you are causing harm. But you aren't causing harm to the one you are upset with; you are causing harm to yourself. By allowing negative thoughts to eat away at you, then you are building a wall around yourself. Each negative or hostile thought is like a brick in that wall. The higher you build it, the harder it will be for good thoughts and positive energy to enter. Let go of what you can't control.<br />When you know it in your heart that the 40% - where you are only 6% of - of the society can't face the opponent mal-educated religion driven 60%. You feel uninspired, ideas are eluding you, your creativity seems oppressed, your energy is flagging. Then they tell you if you face the music now, you can turn it into a symphony!?</div>
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Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-84053370356792193132011-07-16T20:38:00.000+02:002011-07-16T20:38:10.935+02:00Wrinkle wrinkle deeper scar!So another year has passed and my "born-on-7-7-09" blog is 3 years old now. Same like how kids start to get annoying by the age of three; my blog is starting to bore me in a way! Maybe because I'm feeling uninspired to write anything for a long time now? Maybe because I grew out of it? Over the years, I've noticed that I usually create something that inspires me then after a period of time it ceases to inspire me anymore to continue doing it. But, I'm not ready to give up on my blog just yet!<br />
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And since my to-be-posted posts are still in draft, I'll at least keep my tradition of publishing my favorite readers' comments over the past year as a celebration for my blogaversary!<br />
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haha.. god you sound so wierd in arabic.. you're almost a different
person in that post, most probably it's because I don't actually know
you.. intresting!<br /><br />anyway, abdo's a dick and you're a whore :p<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08057387486785575048">Ninja</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html">حين ميسرة</a>" </blockquote>
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نا مش مصدقة!! its very well written. You should definitely write more in Arabic.<br />طبعا
عبده معرس ابن وسخة و انتي قحبة بنت شرموطة بس اللازم اعترف ان انتي فتحتي
باب لكل كوانين مصر!! و انا من مكاني ده باحييكي على سفالتك و شرمطك اللي
كسرت الحاجز اللغوي بين الكوانين و التعبير عن رغباتهم و تجاربهم الجنسية.
هايلة يا ديدي<br /><br />ps the 'Well of Loneliness' reference is a classic!<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10212507308134610756">E</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html">حين ميسرة</a>"</blockquote>
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This post is just wonderful, it is genuine, it is true, it is honest, its thrilling and defenitely erotic.<br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html">حين ميسرة</a>" </blockquote>
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Ice Queer, I am knowing you backwards, from end to beginning. And i like
what im reading so far. I must admit it's one hell of a ride. You make
an excellent existential writer.<br />
By Jess on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html">حين ميسرة</a>"
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And they say dogs r satans! they were the angels who God sent to stop you fornicators from doing what u r doing!<br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html">حين ميسرة</a>"</blockquote>
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probably the best thing u've ever written there...hang in there...and stay focused!<br />
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You know ow much I like your posts but now this one is realy what I can
relate to 100%. I'm glad you saw Vienna like I see Europe and you, going
thyere with an open heart and soul, just recieved its gift, a very
simple gift that costs nothing and means everything, this is life! I'm
glad you noticed the freedom, the greenery, the silence, that everything
is real. Work is real, fun is real, acceptance is real and grenery is
real... Oh and beauty is real, a beauty that anyone can see not in the
eye of the beholder, not immersed in ugliness and not scattered in a
matrix of ranomness...<br />Believe me even if you were thre alone you
woul have felt the same, Europe can always make you happy if you go to
her with an open heart...<br />Glad you liked it and keep going there, IT WILL LEAVE A MARK...<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09422299177470156804">Meto</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/09/de-vienna-rowda-mel-ganna.html">Di Vienna rowda mel Ganna</a>"</blockquote>
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Wow! If this was a musical album it would be the most exciting and personal to date!<br />I would give it a Grammy!<br />Finally something genuine! :P<br />No I am pulling your leg.. but for once you didn't relay on some cheap trick or shortcut to actually "move" people.<br />I
was moved entirely by your personal struggle, not because there was a
controversy or some attempt at sloppy psychology or sexual kink.<br />This was deep and meaningful and I thank you for sharing it.<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10212507308134610756">E</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/10/ich-habe-keine-geduld.html">Ich habe keine Geduld</a>" </blockquote>
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wow.. my heart rate went up about 35 bpm reading that post! :)<br /><br />What
really grabbed me was the "Running to perfection, running away from the
void" statement, I don't know which is actually scarier, the void or
the perfection. To me, they both sound as suffocating as each other.
Maybe the after-life is just the complete perfection that you keep
running away from!<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08057387486785575048">Ninja</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/10/ich-habe-keine-geduld.html">Ich habe keine Geduld</a>"</blockquote>
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*finger snaps* <br />I swear I could hear you in my head narrating this whole post, it was amazing.<br />I expecially liked the "fear of your thoughts being judged" and "bathroom of any party/place would be <br />Your sanctuary". You're a brave brave sole, write on! *fist in the air*<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07401342876003135368">Michael</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/11/gayja-vu.html">Gayja-vu?</a>" </blockquote>
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I don't know you, and I came across your blog as I was googling mine *
so narcissistic I know*... I have only read a couple of your posts and I
am addicted to it already... and I think what clams us down too is
writing about our fears in our blogs, knowing that someone out there
might relate to it, might share our fears and anxieties, knowing that we
are not the only crazy paranoid oppressed people out there...<br />I take my hate off to you Ice Queer... Your blog is one of a kind...<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07468755601247677383">Confessions of me</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2010/11/gayja-vu.html">Gayja-vu?</a>" </blockquote>
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I absolutely loved it!! it's so genuine and honest!!<br />Most of these questions i have in my head and i LOVE that movie :)<br />chapeau <br />
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I am reading this post 6 months later but the points you mentioned are
still valid of course. Living in a country like Egypt requires you
sacrifice a lot of things and put so much effort into things that should
simply be your basic rights. I agree with you that LGBT rights in Egypt
will not really see the light unless Egypt fundamentally changes into a
secular country, and God only knows how long that will take! I am
scared that you will keep on postponing being totally and perfectly who
you are until it's too late. You are still young, I believe now is the
time to travel, experience new things and grow both mentally and
emotionally then maybe come back to Egypt stronger and fight for LGTB
rights having the right knowledge and using the right tools.<br /><br />Anyways,
I am sorry for the long reply. I am not telling you to go or to stay.
It doesn't have to be an either/or situation anyway! Just bear in mind
that there's a price to pay whatever you decide.<br /><br />I love you and
I'll miss you if you go, but I want what's best for you. Am I not the
best person you know born under the sign of Aries? :D <br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/01/limbo.html">Limbo</a>"</blockquote>
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I was so bored and hangover because I can't see my love (it's a long
distance, stupid time shifting) and obviously I drank to much so
whatever I've keept reading your blog since the morning started and I
really like it. Somehow it motivated me to start writing more
experiences down like I used to do it a while ago.<br /><br />Gonna keep reading your blog. Hope everything over there going to get better soon ;-).<br /><br />PS: Awesome there is even an german interview.<br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/00469023722259473170">OldNick</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/01/ein-gewisses-risiko-bleibt-immer.html">Ein gewisses Risiko bleibt immer</a>" </blockquote>
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Truely inspiring to hear how you and your friends unite for freedom.
Just a friendly note to say we are reading about you here in New Zeland
and we are thinking of your people, especially our GLBT brothers and
sisters who face challenges every dsy<br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/02/cruising-is-out-in-tahrir-square.html">Cruising is out in Tahrir Square</a>" </blockquote>
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congrats! Looks like you become a new political voice of the gay egyptians! so that is maybe what it all was meant for... <br />
By <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10692347123626630470">Simonsan</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/02/gay-voice-from-tahrir-square-interview.html">A gay voice from Tahrir Square - Gay City News</a>"</blockquote>
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Hahaha :) I do sometimes feel so hot and do the same chat :)<br /><br />I
never had drinks before bum bum :) It is partly true that the ones who
want to have drinks do not come with you to your or his home :) <br /><br />I had drinks with some. And with any of them we did not have sex :)<br />
By caner on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/05/dont-talk-youll-wreck-it.html">Don't talk, you'll wreck it</a>" </blockquote>
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Ice baby, U r The shit, man. gr8 writing & a lot of fun. we've all
been there, wasting time, skirting around the issue. There r times when
one wants 2 say "I'd rather be masturbating" ...<br />Love from Cape Town<br />
By <a href="http://twitter.com/#%21/incommonworld">incommonworld</a> on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/05/dont-talk-youll-wreck-it.html">Don't talk, you'll wreck it</a>" </blockquote>
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Maybe not everyone is emotionally detached as much as you are :)<br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/05/dont-talk-youll-wreck-it.html">Don't talk, you'll wreck it</a>"</blockquote>
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i went on this blog thinking that i might find something i can relate
to, stories revealing our struggles being gay in a country where they
consider it a sin, instead i found some bullshit about you wanting to
"cut to the chase" and have sex. maybe there's more to this blog but the
first two posts are a turn off. people like you are the reason why
we're discriminated against,thinking that we r a bunch of sexually
oriented freaks. seems like you are not any different from all the
prostitutes and cheapos on manjam. oh and maybe u should consider
changing your shrink, don't think he's of great help to you<br />
By Anonymous on "<a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2011/05/dont-talk-youll-wreck-it.html">Don't talk, you'll wreck it</a>"</blockquote>
Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-64987101634567027982011-05-31T19:41:00.001+02:002011-05-31T19:43:52.632+02:00Don't talk, you'll wreck it!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Last time I wrote a personal post, <a href="http://awkwardsexinthecity.blogspot.com/2011/04/revolutionary-quips.html">Mubarak was still in office</a>! I've been writing a certain post for so long that now it looks like random thoughts that are paragraphed only in my head but not on paper so I've decided to post this post to try to break my dry spell(no pun intended)!<br />
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<b>Scene I:</b><br />
<br />
Him: heyyyy<br />
<b> Me: Hi</b><br />
Him: how are u ?<br />
<b>Me: Good<br />
</b>Me: u<br />
<b>Him: i'm great<br />
</b>Him: i'm sorry where do u live again ?<br />
<b>Me: Cairo</b><br />
Him: hahahah ya i know<br />
<b>Me: I don't remember u either lol<br />
</b>Him: i mean where in cairo ?<br />
<b>Me: (X)<br />
</b>Him: mmm<br />
<b>Him: i'm (X) 22 yrs<br />
</b>Him: lives in (X)<br />
<b>Me: What's ur profile?<br />
</b>Him: but i will be in (X) area for the week<br />
<b>Him: (X) on jam<br />
</b>Him: urs ?<br />
<b>Me: (X)</b><br />
Him: i like ur pix<br />
<b>Me: Thx</b><br />
Him: so maybe we can meet for adrink sometime if u want<br />
<b>Me: Can't we just meet 4 sex directly? :p</b><br />
Him: hahaha<br />
<b>Him: maybe we can meet for adrink first and then we see<br />
</b>Me: I don't understand this abt most of guys in Egypt! Lol<br />
<b>Me: What will happen in "having a drink and seeing"? :D<br />
</b>Me: If it's abt "seeing", u saw me already in pics n you'll c me n have drink or smoke a joint if u want before we've sex lol mesh hanott 3ala ba3d immediately ya3ni<br />
<b>Him: it means we can meet , see each other and have adrink speak<br />
</b>Him: and maybe we have asex after<br />
<b>Me: Aren't we "speaking" now? LOL<br />
</b>Him: ya but u know<br />
<b>Me: Yeah?<br />
</b>Him: sometimes you chat with some one and then u meet him and u see atotally different guy<br />
<b>Me: I'm aware of that, but you've a tongue that u can use and say "u r a nice guy but I don't think we've chemistry"<br />
</b>Him: hahahha<br />
<b>Him: u know what<br />
</b>Him: i really like ur pic<br />
<b>Him: from the chat ya u r nice guy<br />
</b>Me: Yeah thx<br />
<b> Him: maybe we can go for the sex</b><br />
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</b> <br />
<b>Scene II:</b><br />
So I cursed the hormones that made me log on our online freak show and thought about checking "grindr", I mean it's clearly a hook-up mobile app, nothing should go wrong and in the night I should be fucking with someone through it. But little did I assume to know!<br />
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<b>Me: Hey sexy, what's up?</b><br />
Him: Good, u?<br />
<b>Me: Good too, thnx</b><br />
Him: Where r u from?<br />
<b>Me: Egyptian Moroccan living in (X), u?</b><br />
Him: I'm Egyptian but living a board<br />
<b>Me: Aha ok! Here on vacation or business?</b><br />
Him: Business but I'm staying at my parents house in (X)<br />
<b>Me: It's okay, I've got a place</b><br />
Him: What r u looking for?<br />
<b>Me: Sex<br />
</b><br />
Him: What's ur role?<br />
<b>Me: both, u?<br />
</b><br />
Him: Top<br />
<b>Me: oh really? what's ur dick size?</b><br />
Him: 17cm but thick<br />
<b>Me: Interesting!</b><br />
Me: So when r u usually free? Free tomorrow after 2pm if u like to meet for some fun?<br />
<b>Him: I finish work around 2</b><br />
Me: great then!<br />
<b>Him: We can meet for coffee first</b><br />
Me: What for?<br />
<b>Him: So we can see each ather, talk a little and c if we get a long</b><br />
Me: You saw already many pics for me and you'll c me when we meet!<br />
<b>Me: And abt "talking", you've got the 10-15min awkward minutes before sex where u can talk all u want! :p</b><br />
Him: you r wierd!<br />
<b>Me: No, you r here for 10 days!</b><br />
Him: so what?<br />
<b>Me: So u r 30 years old, I'm 22 so we're both basically what? 40?! Why can't u just be realistic and accept the fact that there is no need for us to "socialize" or "be friends" since I've a bf, don't need "long distance" friends who live "a board" and I've told u from the beginning that I'm looking for sex!</b><br />
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<i><b>*The End & I've No Comment, really*</b></i></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-50099818780358891532011-05-21T22:10:00.000+02:002011-05-21T22:10:05.774+02:00Winds of Change - DNA Magazine<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhVPf1XxxUFJul23fv6zyfND0A5IMMiHAp3kIWtRft_zITphB3v3xLCWICScPwOeOtrvyODME9h2KZEfMDgIsPK2FbfLoDrEgLDuKLSQ0vlZJCG8MiHu2MOs6UVkyRDSlNbcYXYVdwMG6R/s1600/DNA1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhVPf1XxxUFJul23fv6zyfND0A5IMMiHAp3kIWtRft_zITphB3v3xLCWICScPwOeOtrvyODME9h2KZEfMDgIsPK2FbfLoDrEgLDuKLSQ0vlZJCG8MiHu2MOs6UVkyRDSlNbcYXYVdwMG6R/s320/DNA1.jpg" width="257" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuhe8kGlND9SZOOe1J9pFPNvA0ts9xgsBCi8NgfdfEh_0QokCujWjK6F-otCUQgW1i4J45AgF_nRwevrQqIMNJUMh7EdP49EqC10iByVWm8fNfFKP5PQKqgWZY0V5uZvdHFGNrmCpEAQOi/s1600/DNA2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuhe8kGlND9SZOOe1J9pFPNvA0ts9xgsBCi8NgfdfEh_0QokCujWjK6F-otCUQgW1i4J45AgF_nRwevrQqIMNJUMh7EdP49EqC10iByVWm8fNfFKP5PQKqgWZY0V5uZvdHFGNrmCpEAQOi/s320/DNA2.jpg" width="257" /></a></div><i><b>Thanks to Hossein Alizadeh</b></i><br />
</div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-408646418781189342011-05-05T04:57:00.003+02:002011-12-08T18:01:18.148+02:00Homophobia is the solution?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Not too long ago, the ex.vice-president, Omar Suleiman, used "Muslim Brotherhood" as an "Islamophobic" straw-man in all his interviews during the Jan25 Revolution to scare the whole world of what would happen if Mubarak left. Today, the Muslim Brotherhood are using homophobia and xenophobia to attract people's votes like they did before during the constitutional referendum and influenced people to vote "yes"!<br />
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On the 3..5.2011, at rally attended by about twenty five thousand people in Tanta, capital of the Gharbiya governorate north of Cairo, Mohammed Badie, leader of the Muslim Brotherhood stated that "it is not permissible for Democracy to allow what's forbidden (haram) or forbid what's allowed(halal) even if the entire nation agreed to it."<br />
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He stressed that "the seekers of freedom and democracy and citizenship will only find them in Islam which is keen to build a good man", adding "the West has allowed gay marriage under the pretext of democracy, which we will never allow in Egypt, and we will not allow under the pretext of national unity that a Muslim woman would get married to a Christian man which violates the Islamic law(Sharia)."<br />
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The Muslim Brotherhood infamously campaigned "<b><i>Islam is the solution</i></b>" during parliamentary elections a couple of years ago. Today, it says it will contest half of the seats in the country's parliamentary elections in September, revealing plans to become a major force in the country's post-revolution politics (though it had previously promised it would not compete for more than 30 per cent of seats). For this end it has founded a new political party called “The Freedom and Justice Party”, and appointed its new leaders in a press conference last Saturday. </div>
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"This is not a religious or a theocratic party," claimed Mahmoud Morsi, the party's newly appointed hawkish leader. He described the platform of the Freedom and Justice Party as civil but with an Islamic background that adheres to the constitution. Brotherhood leaders said that the political party will be separate and independent from the religious group, although in effect, it was the Brotherhood’s own Shura council that elected the Party’s leaders. Both the party’s leader, and it’s vice president, Dr. Essam Elarian, have been long active in the Muslims Brotherhood of Egypt. The latter <a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/programmes/crossing_continents/1858469.stm"> infamously declared </a>(when he was the Muslim Brotherhood’s spokesman) during the notorious Cario 52 or Queen Boat incident in 2002: "From my religious view, all the religious people, in Christianity, in Judaism, condemn homosexuality. … It is against the whole sense in Egypt. The temper in Egypt is against homosexuality."</div>
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Nine years later, even after the amazing changes taking place in Egypt, has Dr. Essam Elarian changed his mind? In a recent <a href="http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2011/feb/08/egypt-muslim-brotherhood-uncovered"> interview to the Guardian</a> he said: "The issue of human rights has become a global language," he said. "Although each country has its own particulars, respect of human rights is now a concern for all peoples" – though he specifically excluded gay rights. So it seems at best he has slightly moderated his tone but not his views. </div>
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Although the Brotherhood appears to have firmly embraced democracy, the means for reconciling that with its religious principles are not entirely clear: the issue of God's sovereignty versus people's sovereignty looks to have been fudged rather than resolved, and this is most apparent for women, non-Muslims and minorities, including Egypt’s LGBT community. We can thus rightly ask: for the Freedom and Justice Party – <b><i>homophobia is the solution</i></b> to cover up this blatant contradiction?<br />
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<i>Article was published on <a href="http://gaymiddleeast.com/news/news%20298.htm">GayMiddleEast </a></i><br />
<i>Article is published on <a href="http://www.sdgln.com/commentary/2011/05/06/egypt-muslim-brotherhood-may-stir-up-homophobia">San Diego Gay & Lesbian News</a></i><br />
<i>Article got translated into Turkish and published on <a href="http://www.kaosgl.org/sayfa.php?id=10149" target="_blank">KAOS GL</a></i></div>
</div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-40820773663016685952011-03-12T23:27:00.002+02:002011-03-12T23:37:32.573+02:00Popular Uprisings: Marriage Equality and Gay Rights in Egypt - Global Post<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="content"><div dir="ltr"><div class="separator"><a href="http://www.genderacrossborders.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/egyptianrights-300x225.jpg"><img border="0" height="225" src="http://www.genderacrossborders.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/egyptianrights-300x225.jpg" width="300" /></a></div>Photo is taken from <a href="http://www.genderacrossborders.com/" target="_blank">Gender Across Borders</a>.<br />
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The most talked about issue in the gay rights movement in America is marriage equality. And Wednesday signified a historic moment for the LGBTQ community, when the <a href="http://feministing.com/2011/02/23/breaking-obama-pronounces-doma-unconstitutional-asks-doj-to-cease-defending-the-law/" target="_blank">Obama administration announced</a> that, “Section 3 of the 1996 Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) — which prohibits the federal government from recognizing same-sex marriages — is unconstitutional and [we] will ask the Justice Department to stop defending the law.” (I agree with others that <a href="http://www.slate.com/id/2286200/" target="_blank">this should have come sooner</a>. But it is something.)</div>For me, marriage equality is less about a burning desire to sign a legally enforceable marriage contract with the one I love and more about an expression of my personal freedoms and liberties. I believe every person should have the right to choose whether or not they want to enter into marriage (and have access to <a href="http://www.hrc.org/issues/5585.htm" target="_blank">the 1,138 federal benefits that come with a marriage contract</a>).<br />
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Yet, just like reproductive rights do not encapsulate the entirety of women’s rights, marriage equality is not synonymous with gay rights. Marriage is, in fact, a <a href="http://en.wikinews.org/wiki/Interview_with_gay_marriage_movement_founder_Evan_Wolfson" target="_blank">relatively recent strategic focus</a> (<a href="http://www.beyondmarriage.org/full_statement.html" target="_blank">and, some might argue, not necessarily the most important</a>). The issues that we—LGBTQ folks and allies—mobilize around have inevitably changed with time. In America, today our issue is marriage equality; in the past it was decriminalizing sodomy, fighting housing discrimination, etc.. etc., etc.<br />
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In the face of changing times and evolving issues, a consistent basis for the LGBTQ movement, and any social movement, is our freedom of association—the individual right to come together with other individuals and collectively express, promote, pursue and defend common interests.<br />
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I found myself thinking a lot about this right as I watched the protest movement in Egypt unfolding. And now that the revolutionary masses have left Tahrir Square, I wonder: When people talk about the future of human rights in Egypt does this include equal rights for gays and lesbians? What are the most pressing issues facing the Egyptian LGBTQ community—the issues a movement could be built around (and, perhaps, the issues already being discussed in hiding)?<br />
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To date, although Egypt does not have an anti-sodomy law on the books, other laws have been used to target and arrest gays and lesbians, including claims of violations of the “Public Order & Public Morals” code and “violating the teachings of religion and propagating depraved ideas and moral depravity.” The most widely known attack on homosexuals occurred in 2001 and was dubbed <a href="http://www.hrw.org/en/node/12167/section/4" target="_blank">“The Cairo 52”</a> — 52 gay men aboard a floating nightclub called the Queen Boat were arrested. The detainees <a href="http://www.hrw.org/en/node/12167/section/4" target="_blank">were subjected</a> to forensic examinations, apparently in order to determine whether they had engaged in anal intercourse. They were also forced to say “my name, my job, my address and say ‘I am gay.’” Despite the pleas of international humanitarian organizations, 23 of these men were imprisoned.<br />
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I am not the only one wondering “what now?” for the LBGTQ community in Egypt. <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/keli-goff/does-the-new-free-egypt-m_b_823225.html" target="_blank">Last week in the Huffington Post</a>, Keli Goff posted an article in which she expressed skepticism about what the regime’s demise would mean for gays and lesbians. Goff wrote,<br />
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“While I hate to be a “Debbie Downer,” it must be said that amid the worldwide jubilation that greeted the news of Hosni Mubarak’s retirement from his chosen profession of dictator, not all are celebrating. A big question mark remains regarding what this new era in Egypt will mean for gays and lesbians.”<br />
And in light of last week’s announcement that the state’s emergency laws might be lifted in six months Katherine Franke offered a thoughtful perspective on the <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/katherine-franke/a-gay-rights-angle-on-the_b_826682.html" target="_blank">“Gay Rights Angle on the Egyptian Revolution?”</a> Franke wrote,<br />
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“As Egypt and its supporters begin to dismantle the decades-old institutionalization of the State of Emergency, it is important to bear in mind the ways in which the denial of basic civil and human rights for sexual minorities can be used to undermine larger projects of democratization that seem not to “be about” gay rights at all.”<br />
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On a slightly more optimistic note, the website <a href="http://www.gaymiddleeast.com/" target="_blank">Gay Middle East (GME)</a> featured an interview with the well-known Egyptian <a href="http://lezgetreal.com/2011/02/cairo-cruising-is-out-in-tahrir-square-an-interview/" target="_blank">gay blogger IceQueer</a>, in which he stated:<br />
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GME: “I suppose it’s too risky and even counter productive to ask directly for LGBT rights in the protests, but how do you see these issues in the context of the revolution and a larger human rights agenda?”<br />
IQ: “You can’t ask for lots of changes that have different affect on people. I mean already asking for “freedom” and “fall of regime” bedazzled the whole country and its people. So imagine what would happen if we asked for LGBT rights?<br />
“I believe that Egypt’s LGBT community can only have its rights when Egypt becomes a real secular country.”<br />
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To date, no organization exists in Egypt whose explicit aim is to improve the legal or social position of LGBTQ Egyptians. Furthermore, <a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/middle_east/1813926.stm" target="_blank">Egyptian human rights organizations have largely avoided LGBTQ-rights issues</a> for fear of a backlash from the government or socially conservative citizens.<br />
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Hopefully, this can and will change now.<br />
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Rasha Moumneh—a researcher with Human Rights Watch who works with feminist and LGBT groups in the Middle East—was <a href="http://www.signorile.com/2011/02/what-protests-mean-for-lgbt-egyptians.html" target="_blank">interviewed on The Gist</a> and provided a nuanced description of what the protests might mean for LGBTQ Egyptians.<br />
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“I think the key issue to look at going forward is if there is a democratic transition and if there is a popular government that is truly representative and that does respect human rights. I think the most important thing to look at is whether freedom of expression and freedom of association are going to be guaranteed. I think those are going to be the most indicative things moving forward to see whether work on sexual rights or gender rights is going to be pushed forward.”<br />
It remains to be seen what the popular uprising will mean for every sector of Egyptian society, including gays and lesbians. Whatever it is, it seems likely that meaningful change will be slow to emerge. As a friend of mine likes to say, <a href="http://www.peacexpeace.org/2011/02/breaking-news-egypt-people-power-and-us/" target="_blank">“Evolution is more complex than a revolution.”</a><br />
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Something that went largely unmentioned in all of the reporting on the recent uprising in Egypt is that before Tahrir Square was the center of the pro-democracy movement <a href="http://www.gayegypt.com/centralcairo.html" target="_blank">it was the most popular place for gay cruising in Cairo</a>. Let’s hope that now it can be home to both democracy and the LGBTQ community.<br />
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And as change unfolds, let’s—as an international LGBTQ community—actively support Egyptians. Our issues may be different but our right to express our sexuality and the freedom to collectively promote, pursue and defend common interests is the same.<br />
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<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img alt="" height="1" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259937-320356101460271054?l=theegyptblog.blogspot.com" width="1" /></div><div class="feed-link-original"><a href="http://theegyptblog.blogspot.com/2011/03/popular-uprisings-marriage-equality-and.html">Original Article</a></div><div class="feed-link-original"><a href="http://www.globalpost.com/webblog/egypt/popular-uprisings-marriage-equality-and-gay-rights-egypt">Source </a></div></div></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-38313905387705111322011-03-11T15:04:00.000+02:002011-03-11T15:04:23.394+02:00A WIND OF CHANGE? - GayRomeo<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-XfBtjP2rvXG55vggVE0JazDHq4SzZe2LaM524xBQwClh9aqphUM1dVmmKv0u-hDvzNpJu8XAC1jnz8CWc7zamoMUL2sNtxeGv_SW6Bie_kfWRu89fOM-OOo3TqzqdzRMlWRLaoddrP-5/s1600/pr.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="126" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-XfBtjP2rvXG55vggVE0JazDHq4SzZe2LaM524xBQwClh9aqphUM1dVmmKv0u-hDvzNpJu8XAC1jnz8CWc7zamoMUL2sNtxeGv_SW6Bie_kfWRu89fOM-OOo3TqzqdzRMlWRLaoddrP-5/s320/pr.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<em>A WIND OF CHANGE? </em><br />
The news and images coming out of Egypt, Libya, Bahrain, Yemen and other countries in North Africa and the Middle East, remind us of all the LGBT people who suffer or have been the victims of violence at the hands of the state or society. We can't choose where we are born, or who we are destined to love. Nor can we forget the cruel and tragic images of youths being hung in Iran - a country where death remains a real threat for anyone accused or suspected of being gay.<br />
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In the past weeks, many <a href="http://www.planetromeo.com/Kb3ToDk2d9CaAypjC2sDr6nHA3IFlX15/jump.php?lang=en&jump=http%3A%2F%2Fconfessions-room.blogspot.com%2F2011%2F02%2Fgay-voice-from-tahrir-square-interview.html" target="_blank" title="A gay voice from Tahrir Square">gay people have taken part </a>in the mass protests across North Africa and the Middle East. Their heartfelt aspirations they have for their countries and for their own rights are deeply inspiring. We must hope that whatever "freedoms" are won will include and not exclude the rights of sexual and other minorities. Experience shows that while governments and regimes can sometimes fall overnight, it takes much longer for a society to lose its prejudices. <br />
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<a href="http://www.planetromeo.com/Kb3ToDk2d9CaAypjC2sDr6nHA3IFlX15/aboutme/?jump=foundationGayRightsBlog">Source</a></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-71888872598422159102011-03-09T17:35:00.001+02:002011-03-09T20:33:47.326+02:00L'Egitto, tra rivoluzione, Internet e omosessualità: anche il blogger gay IceQueer in piazza Tahrir<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span class="post-timestamp"><a class="timestamp-link" href="http://noirpink.blogspot.com/2011/03/egitto-gay.html" rel="bookmark" title="permanent link"><abbr class="published" title="2011-03-01T22:57:00+01:00"></abbr></a> </span> <br />
<div class="post-body entry-content"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPeuNBeMetpKcuROY22zDLVIQuJ7qqMEkdcbQEFmX16OmnYITQQKD4EScxbj6HH64maWCtmJuK096TzTnt5Xy5PicGVTNktlUDEqmbAmcEgODXQda_eBWtyqKQGSP4cUyZj-Qw15FKCPs/s1600/Resized+image.jpeg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5579228936662508082" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPeuNBeMetpKcuROY22zDLVIQuJ7qqMEkdcbQEFmX16OmnYITQQKD4EScxbj6HH64maWCtmJuK096TzTnt5Xy5PicGVTNktlUDEqmbAmcEgODXQda_eBWtyqKQGSP4cUyZj-Qw15FKCPs/s400/Resized+image.jpeg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 199px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 400px;" /></a>Abbiamo sentito raccontare le rivoluzione del Nord Africa da esperti (spesso presunti), da leader politici, da ideologici, da professori universitari. <b>Sentirsela raccontare da chi quella rivoluzione l'ha fatta nella strada</b>, con le idee della strada, fa tutto un altro effetto. E ci permette di capire davvero la rabbia e la gioia, la paura e la speranza, l'incertezza e la sicurezza e soprattutto la fede assoluta nel popolo e in Internet che sono state in grado di muovere le masse e di abbattere i dittatori.<br />
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Dopo che Rachid, rappresentante in Italia dell'associazione lgbt clandestina marocchina KifKif, ci ha raccontato <a href="http://noirpink.blogspot.com/2011/02/marocco-gay.html">le rivolte in Marocco</a>, ora <b>il più noto blogger gay egiziano, <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">IceQueer</a></b>, ci racconta gli eccezionali giorni che l'Egitto sta vivendo. Ce li racconta con gli occhi di un semplice amante della libertà che, senza alcuna esperienza di politica, come lui stesso ammette, ha vissuto la straordinaria esperienza di scrivere la storia in piazza Tahrir...<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEierBa7Yo_9Fjp9A56yvhKeQ670F9o044UCgUJe5ZyvJKROzen1RKAhrxhldQXuF-WSJx6R-MTKPxPylfGgb4cnB7IkkGICqtrQe0aZ9qBP191UuV0DkU-YWOyt-bTiCqng6vuX0uMhxUY/s1600/Resized+image-1.jpeg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5579228639141879986" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEierBa7Yo_9Fjp9A56yvhKeQ670F9o044UCgUJe5ZyvJKROzen1RKAhrxhldQXuF-WSJx6R-MTKPxPylfGgb4cnB7IkkGICqtrQe0aZ9qBP191UuV0DkU-YWOyt-bTiCqng6vuX0uMhxUY/s400/Resized+image-1.jpeg" style="cursor: pointer; float: left; height: 280px; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; width: 209px;" /></a><b><i>Quali sono state le cause principali della vostra rivolta?</i></b><br />
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Il popolo egiziano non ne poteva più di Mubarak e del suo regime: la rivoluzione è stato <b>il risultato naturale di quello che abbiamo sofferto</b> negli ultimi 10-15 anni e forse anche di più. Il popolo in piazza Tahrir chiedeva i diritti più essenziali, che sono libertà, giustizia sociale e democrazia.<br />
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<b><i>Qual è stato il ruolo di Facebook, di Twitter, dei blog?</i></b><br />
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I social network hanno giocato un ruolo importante nell'organizzare il popolo e anche nello smascherare l'ipocrisia dei mass media. <b>I social network semplicemente dicono la verità</b>. Puoi leggere di un caso di tortura su Twitter, vedere il video su YouTube e poi discuterne su FaceBook!<br />
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<b><i>Dal punto di vista occidentale, il ruolo dell'esercito non è molto chiaro...</i></b><br />
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Ad essere onesti, <b>il ruolo dell'esercito adesso non è molto chiaro neppure per noi</b>. Il popolo è contro questo governo di transizione e l'esercito sta cercando di rimanere il più neutrale possibile, ma non è abbastanza.<br />
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<b><i>Non è molto chiaro neppure il ruolo dei Fratelli Musulmani...</i></b><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPTvIqLfS7jIoGCaRUIbXle3B6X8c4J1_XEusyLbuf71WSwmFYeOod5kxhXgTXQ50N04ew5xKKULpzS0q29odMpeC01YEpqMVWppYe4jXzC1VpBVpRJSckbFjXif2QC9yII-TRyh1N8IQ/s1600/Resized+image-2.jpeg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5579228821763358258" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPTvIqLfS7jIoGCaRUIbXle3B6X8c4J1_XEusyLbuf71WSwmFYeOod5kxhXgTXQ50N04ew5xKKULpzS0q29odMpeC01YEpqMVWppYe4jXzC1VpBVpRJSckbFjXif2QC9yII-TRyh1N8IQ/s400/Resized+image-2.jpeg" style="cursor: pointer; float: right; height: 280px; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; width: 210px;" /></a><b>La rivoluzione egiziana non ha portato avanti alcun programma</b> politico o religioso, ma gran parte del popolo fino ad ora non vuole i Fratelli Musulmani per le prossime elezioni.<br />
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<b><i>A Palermo, un ragazzo marocchino, Noureddine Adnane, si è dato fuoco per protestare contro le persecuzioni della polizia italiana, emulando il gesto storico del tunisino Mohamed Bouazizi. Credi che i giovani delle due sponde del Mediterraneo possano unirsi per lottare contro tutti gli oppressori?</i></b><br />
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La gente non ha alcuna idea di come ci si senta quando inizi a uccidere le tue paure e diventi capace di dire: "<b><i>No, ora basta, andatevene via!</i></b>". E' uno spirito che spero che persista in Egitto e nel mondo intero.<br />
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<b><i>Cosa ne pensi dell'Italia?</i></b><br />
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Sarò superficiale: ti dico che <b>l'Italia per me è la moda, i bei ragazzi e l'architettura</b>, ma sono sicuro che ci sono molte più cose da conoscere a proposito dell'Italia. Io sto cercando di conoscerle attraverso i miei amici italiani, qui in Egitto.<br />
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<b><i>E del nostro governo, cosa ne pensi?</i></b><br />
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Del vostro governo? Beh, io non sono un'esperto di politica, quindi non so davvero cosa dire sulla situazione in Italia, ma <b>di tanto in tanto leggo notizie sulla corruzione di Berlusconi</b>.<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipITUb4s3N51BCbRWPcFWKM7oS3U3D87pVW7sI2RiuAIW223ohVdBac7tuI6bkjOBB8uEsePeVZGjuUpuZ_mndJa8m-vDpQrLc8zOamWNyoYbsGiJmVv5MB5OItPPNDAg_8zyvDD4jLoo/s1600/Resized+image-3.jpeg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5579228645769199890" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipITUb4s3N51BCbRWPcFWKM7oS3U3D87pVW7sI2RiuAIW223ohVdBac7tuI6bkjOBB8uEsePeVZGjuUpuZ_mndJa8m-vDpQrLc8zOamWNyoYbsGiJmVv5MB5OItPPNDAg_8zyvDD4jLoo/s400/Resized+image-3.jpeg" style="cursor: pointer; float: left; height: 280px; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; width: 209px;" /></a><b><i>Come vivono i gay e le lesbiche in Egitto?</i></b><br />
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La vita per i gay e le lesbiche in Egitto varia da persona a persona: alcuni sono profondamente repressi, alcuni sono "discreti", <b>alcuni sono dichiarati, ma non con tutti</b>, e una minoranza sono dichiarati con i propri genitori e con gli amici. Fondamentalmente ci incontriamo tra di noi attraverso i siti di incontro online.<br />
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<b><i>Qual è la situazione dal punto di vista legale?</i></b><br />
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Anche se in Egitto l'omosessualità non è illegale in senso stretto, <b>gli omosessuali vengono arrestati</b> in riferimento ai reati di "depravazione abituale" e di "comportamenti osceni", in base all'articolo 9c della legge n. 10 del 1961 sulla lotta alla prostituzione, e al reato di "disprezzo della religione", in base all'articolo 98 del codice penale.</div><div class="post-body entry-content"></div><div class="post-body entry-content"><a href="http://noirpink.blogspot.com/2011/03/egitto-gay.html">Source </a></div></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-4351814829577490162011-02-20T16:31:00.001+02:002011-02-20T17:25:31.902+02:00A gay voice from Tahrir Square - Gay City News [Updated]<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">If the ongoing Egyptian people’s revolution that toppled Hosni Mubarak in just 18 days — after 30 years of dictatorship — quickly engulfed the whole country, its beating heart was always Cairo’s Tahrir Square (in Arabic, “Liberation Square”), for many years a gay cruising mecca.<br />
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And gay people were among the millions of Egyptian citizens who made the revolution possible and joined the crowds who occupied the square to demand democracy and freedom from oppression.<br />
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This revolution was motored by young people through the Internet, and one of them was a well-educated, 22-year-old gay blogger and medical student who uses the pseudonym Ice Queer (“It’s a pun on ‘Ice Queen,’ as I’m a calm, cool person,” he explained). He was present in Tahrir Square during much of the protest, including last Friday, February 11, when Mubarak finally fell.<br />
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Ice Queer was an early participant in what has been dubbed the “Facebook revolution” that harnessed the social network to organize the first protests in Tahrir Square and elsewhere on January 25. But social networking was a means to an end. What motivations led Ice Queer to join this movement and help mobilize the demonstrations?<br />
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“Because we were fed up of Mubarak and his regime,“ he told Gay City News in an interview conducted through a series of email exchanges. “I started participating after I made sure that the protests didn’t have any political or religious agenda from any party and that all protesters are protesting because we are Egyptians and humans who have been oppressed for decades!<br />
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“Also it gave me and others a great sense of self, because for so many years most of the Egyptian society was undervaluing the power and enthusiasm of us, the youth! Everything that everyone did mattered, even those who showed up in Tahrir Square just to support and show solidarity.”<br />
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<div id="instory"></div>On his first day of protest in Tahrir Square, Ice Queer said, “I was holding a sign saying ‘Secular’ in Arabic, English, and French, and also my friends (straight, gay, girls, Christians, and Muslims) were holding similar signs, and we all were chanting that this protest is for the people and not for any party or religion.”<br />
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The multitudes in Tahrir Square reflected a veritable rainbow, as Ice Queer witnessed: “Gay, straight, Christian, Muslim, Atheist, Poor, Rich, Black, White, Nubian, Bedouin… EVERYONE was in Tahrir in a beautiful humanitarian image that I saw with my own eyes!”<br />
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Every step the Mubarak regime took — seesawing back and forth between violent repression and minor concessions — backfired, stiffening the protesters’ resolve to continue and swelling the crowds in Tahrir Square, Ice Queer said. Because he was on call in the hospital where he interns, he was not present in the square on the day Mubarak sent undercover police and thugs from the <i>lumpenproletariat</i>, paid 8 Euros a day, to attack the pro-democracy demonstrators with clubs, knives, and Molotov cocktails. With a tinge of regret, he wrote, “I don’t know if I should feel lucky or sorry that I wasn’t there on these days.”<br />
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But Ice Queer was fortunate, he said, to have been in Tahrir Square when Mubarak’s hand-picked vice president and notorious point man in the CIA’s rendition and torture program, Omar Suleiman, read a short statement on national television announcing that the dictator was stepping down and handing power over to the Military Council.<br />
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“On 11th of February, I was in Tahrir Square after Friday’s prayers,” he told this reporter, “and it was very peaceful as on most of the protests’ days. Shortly before the announcement of Omar Suleiman, I was on my way with my friends to grab a bite to eat from a place that’s about ten minutes away from the square, and while we were in the middle of that distance we heard a very loud cheer and cars joyfully tooting their horns. We couldn’t believe it because there was a ‘false alarm’ before, so we called our families for confirmation and we couldn’t have been happier!”<br />
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Unlike the previous day’s unrealized rumors that Mubarak would step down that evening, which had sent the square’s throngs into paroxysms of joy, Suleiman’s announcement on February 11 was for real.<br />
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“When we went back to the square, we were amazed!,” Ice Queer continued. “People were all hugging and congratulating each other, chanting ‘People indeed removed the system,’ ‘There is no people like the Egyptian people,’ and that ‘Mubarak should be prosecuted’. All the women started to do the popular <i>Zaghrouta</i> (ululation), some people were crying with joy, and some were dancing. Basically everyone was expressing his/ her joy the way he/ she knows to!<br />
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“For me, I was having goosebumps all of the time after Mubarak quit! I kept dancing and chanting with my friends and called my boyfriend to share the moment with him too.”<br />
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In contrast to the vast majority of Egyptian men who have sex with men — he guesses that “maybe five percent” of whom are out of the closet — Ice Queer self-identifies as gay and is out to his parents and friends, and frequently blogs on gay themes.<br />
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Homosexuals under Mubarak’s dictatorship lived under a cloud of fear, marked by waves of intensifying repression. A defining event in the regime’s crackdown was the May 11, 2001 arrest of the men known as the Cairo 52, when police raided a gay party being held aboard a floating nightclub, the Queen Boat, anchored in the Nile.<br />
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Although homosexuality is not strictly illegal in Egypt, of the 52 men arrested on the Queen Boat, 50 were charged with “habitual debauchery” and “obscene behavior” under Article 9c of Law No. 10 of 1961 on the Combat of Prostitution. The other two were charged with “contempt of religion” under Article 98f of the Penal Code. These laws have regularly been used to prosecute Egyptian gays, as has the Emergency Law — in place since Mubarak assumed the helm in the wake of Anwar Sadat’s assassination in 1981 – which gives the government the right to arrest people without charge, detain prisoners indefinitely, limit freedom of expression and assembly, and maintain a special security court.<br />
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The Cairo 52 were brutally beaten and tortured by police. In a series of hugely publicized trials — during which the uniformly homophobic Egyptian media sensationalized the Queen Boat incident and vilified the men arrested — nearly half of them received prison terms of three years. During the same crackdown, all gay websites were closed down, either by censorship of the Internet or by the arrest of those who ran them.<br />
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The persecution of the Cairo 52 was Mubarak’s attempt to throw a sop to the Islamist fundamentalist imams and the Muslim Brotherhood, who were campaigning against homosexuality.<br />
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Crackdowns on gays served another purpose as well. When critics of the regime disseminated rumors the dictator’s son, Gamal — whom he hoped to install as his successor as president — was gay, repression of queers was used by Mubarak to cauterize accusations that his government was guilty of “Western decadence.”<br />
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Arrests, brutality, and torture of gay men by police — designed, in part, to ferret out the names of other homosexuals — were common in the Mubarak years.<br />
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“They even used to make some of them a deal that they will let them go if they lead them to other homosexuals or if they work for them to trap other homosexuals online,” Ice Queer noted.<br />
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He went on to explain, “Mubarak knew very well how fear could make him fully control people. The Cairo 52 catastrophe is in the mind of every gay guy in Egypt. Whenever I go to or host a gay party, I always had to a certain degree the fear of ‘This could be another Queen Boat catastrophe.’ Although I wasn’t actively gay at the Cairo 52 time, I remember very well that time and how I was following the case in newspapers though I was only 12 and didn’t fully know about homosexuality back then.”<br />
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Ice Queer’s first sexual encounter occurred when “I was 13-14,” he said.<br />
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“My parents were away for summer vacation and I was home alone,” he recalled. “I chatted with someone on Yahoo chat and then I brought him home. It was a horrible experience — he was totally not my type, but thankfully it wasn’t hardcore.”<br />
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The young blogger elaborated, “I went through the phases of self-struggle like most gay guys, but what made me get quickly out of them into self-acceptance were my friends, reading, doubting, and questioning until I reached balance. I didn’t choose to come out to my parents. It’s a very long story, and they saw it coming anyway, as they indirectly asked me many times before whether I’m gay or not. They knew all along but were in denial and had no ‘evidence’ against me, until one day my sister and my mother confronted me with a chat history that I forgot to delete, so I had no other choice. Their reaction was very surprising actually, because I always thought it would be a disaster and that they would ground or violently punish me.<br />
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“They just sat me down and asked me if I was molested when I was a kid and whether I had sex or not, then they said, ‘It could be a psychological problem, would you like to see a shrink?’ and so I did! I saw my shrink for a year and half, then I stopped going and told my parents that I’m ‘cured.’ (You can check my blog posts about the whole experience starting January 2009).<br />
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“My closest straight friends knew way long before my parents because I was sick of living a lie and having to pretend to be someone else in front of them. Some of them are still my friends up till now and some are not. Their reactions were mostly positive, but some just tried to preach and gave me religious books because they don’t want me to ‘suffer’ and they wanted ‘what’s best for me.’ Anyhow girls’ reaction was much smoother than guys’.”<br />
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Ice Queer, like most self-accepting Egyptian gays, believes that winning the basic human rights of free speech, freedom of association, and freedom of the press are necessary preconditions to the educational process that alone can change hostile cultural attitudes toward same-sex love in Egypt. Now that Mubarak has fallen, this reporter asked him if he believes that raising the question of gay rights must wait until those freedoms are clearly and unalterably established.<br />
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“Totally!” he replied, adding, “We need first to realize basic human rights and establish a democratic secular atmosphere before fighting for our LGBT rights. In recent years, homophobia hasn’t really changed in our media, and the post-Mubarak Egypt will depend on which political party will rule.”<br />
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The optimism of the will that animated young Egyptians in overcoming their fears and launching protests that led to the revolution is evident in Ice Queer, who voiced no doubts about the army being held to its promises of full democracy.<br />
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“If we were able to get rid of Mubarak’s regime in 18 days, I guess we are able to do anything if we unite again for our freedom,” he declared.<br />
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What does Ice Queer want from the new, post-Mubarak Egypt?<br />
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“To always enjoy the ‘freedom’ that I’m enjoying in these days, to be able to express my point of view without censorship, to be living in a real secular country, to not fear that I’d be prosecuted one day because I’m gay or because I’m atheist,” he responded. “To simply be able to enjoy my humanity by all its means!”<br />
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But the army now in power has been part and parcel of the corrupt, repressive regime and owns hundreds of highly profitable businesses in the poisoned, top-heavy economic system from which its generals have profited handsomely. The Interior Ministry’s security apparatus — which numbers one and a half million paid agents and informers — has yet to be dismantled, and the draconian Emergency Law remains in full force.<br />
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Observers can only hope that the optimism of the Egyptian youth — as illustrated by Ice Queer’s confident enthusiasm — is not misplaced, and that the democratic revolution in which they believe will not be sabotaged, deformed, or debased by the country’s power elite in the months and years to come.<br />
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<i>Ice Queer’s blog— which he could not update during much of the revolution due to the Mubarak </i><i>regime’s shutting down of the Internet — is at <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/">http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/</a>. The Human Rights Watch 2004 report on the Mubarak regime’s anti-homosexual campaign and the Cairo 52 incident, “In a Time of Torture: The Assault on Justice in Egypt’s Crackdown on Homosexual Conduct,” is online at <a href="http://hrw.org/en/node/12167/section/2">hrw.org/en/node/12167/section/2</a>. Doug Ireland can be reached through his blog, DIRELAND, at <a href="http://direland.typepad.com/">direland.typepad.com</a>.</i><br />
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<b><i>Update #1:</i></b><br />
<i>Bikyamasr.com also <a href="http://bikyamasr.com/wordpress/?p=27754">published</a> the interview</i></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-32511583302430065132011-02-12T16:14:00.000+02:002011-02-12T16:14:14.146+02:00Radio interview with Gaydar radio<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><iframe allowtransparency='true' frameborder='0' scrolling='no' src='http://twaud.io/embed/qln6' style='width: 395px; height: 65px; border: none;'></iframe><br />
</div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-89297097777623749742011-02-12T16:11:00.001+02:002011-02-20T17:28:21.573+02:00„IceQueer“ – der Gay-Blogger aus Ägypten - Siegessäule.de [Updated]<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><h3>Er bloggt direkt aus Kairo, ist schwul, geht gegen das Mubarak-Regime auf die Straße und schreibt online über beides – auch wenn es gefährlich ist</h3><div class="bodytext">SIS 10.2. – „IceQueer“ ist ein Internet-Synonym, seinen richtigen Namen kann er nicht nennen, denn Homosexuelle werden in Ägypten verfolgt. Siegessaeule.de sprach mit dem 22-jährigen, der in Kairo als Assistenzarzt arbeitet. </div><div class="bodytext"><b>SIS: Wie erlebst du die Proteste in Kairo? Warst oder bist du am Tahrir Square?</b><br />
IceQueer: Ich war am ersten und 8. Februar am Tahrir, es war sehr friedlich und ein bisschen wie Karneval. Die Leute rufen ihre Forderungen in Sprechchören, es herrschte eine fantastische Atmosphäre – es ist wie ein neues Utopia! </div><div class="bodytext"><b>Was denkst du, wie die junge Generation, die dort protestiert, gegenüber Schwulen und Lesben eingestellt ist?</b> <br />
Die Meinung und Haltung gegenüber Schwulen und Lesben variiert stark von Person zu Person, man kann es also nicht eindeutig sagen. Einigen ist die sexuelle Orientierung anderer einfach egal, andere begründen ihre Haltung auf Religion ... Ich glaube, dass sich die Haltung gegenüber Schwulen und Lesben nicht an einer Generation oder einer sozialen Schicht festmachen lässt, sie ist abhängig von der jeweiligen Art zu denken und zu fühlen. Die ägyptische Jugend ist so vielfältig, ich kann nicht einmal für die Schwulen unter ihnen sprechen. Ich kann nur von meinen eigenen Erfahrungen berichten und glaube, dass diese neue Generation offener und liberaler ist. </div><div class="bodytext"><b>In Europa wird oft die Frage diskutiert, was passiert, wenn die Moslem-Brüder an die Macht kämen. Was denkst du als schwuler Mann über die Moslem-Brüder?</b><br />
Auch wenn ich persönlich nicht pro Moslem-Brüder und auch nicht religiös bin, verdienen sie es gehört zu werden und an der politischen Zukunft Ägyptens teilzunehmen. Ich glaube nicht, dass sie es schaffen, den Präsidenten zu stellen, sie konnten es auch nicht als sie sehr stark waren und Sadat erschossen, wie sollten sie es also jetzt schaffen? Außerdem werden die Tahrir-Proteste nicht für eine bestimmte politische Agenda oder Partei geführt. Wir protestieren für Freiheit, soziale Gerechtigkeit, Demokratie und die elementaren Menschenrechte und viele andere Forderungen. Die nächste Präsidentschaftswahl sollte fair, legal und von Beobachtern begleitet durchgeführt werden, damit der die Wahl gewinnt, den das Volk wählt. Wenn die Mehrheit der Bevölkerung die Moslem-Brüder wählt, wer wäre ich, wer wärest du, das zu verurteilen? Es wären die Leute, die das Volk gewählt hätte und wir alle hätten das zu respektieren. <b><br />
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Was sind deine Hoffnungen für dein Land, was sind deine Hoffnungen für dein Leben und LGBT-Personen?</b><br />
Ich glaube, alle drei Hoffnungen sind eigentlich eine einzige. Ich bin ja nicht zu den Protesten gegangen, weil ich schwul bin oder Rechte für LGBTs fordere, sondern weil ich das Beste für mein Land will. Wenn sich meine Hoffnungen für Ägypten erfüllen, würden sich auch meine persönlichen Wünsche leichter erfüllen. Zum Beispiel, wenn Ägypten wirklich ein säkularer Staat wird, habe ich mehr Raum zu sein, was ich bin. Und wenn alle Menschen faire Löhne für ihre Arbeit bekommen, werden auch alle mehr von ihrem Leben erwarten können und dadurch auch anderen gegenüber gelassener werden. </div><div class="bodytext"><b>Ich habe gehört, das der Tahrir Square vor den Demos ein schwuler Treffpunkt war? Das ist natürlich sehr symbolisch für Freiheit! </b><br />
Ja, viele cruisen gerne am Tahrir, viele haben auch einfach keinen Zugang zum Internet. Wenn die Polizei früher auf einfache Weise ein paar Homosexuelle verhaften wollte, fuhr sie zum Tahrir. Aber heute findest du da Schwarze, Weiße, Schwule, Heteros, Christen, Muslime, und einfach alle protestieren zusammen auf eine wundervolle, menschliche Art und Weise!</div><div class="bodytext"><b>Wie ist die rechtliche Situation in Ägypten für LGBTs?</b><br />
Es gibt kein Gesetz, das gleichgeschlechtlichen Sex oder Beziehungen verbietet, man wird statt dessen wegen Unzüchtigkeit oder Verstoß gegen die öffentliche Moral angeklagt. Das Problem ist, dass die ägyptischen Polizisten die von ihnen Verdächtigten in sprachliche Fallen locken. Sie sprechen zum Beispiel nur von Unzüchtigkeit und bringen die Opfer dazu, dies auch selbst zu tun, obwohl derjenige vielleicht nur gleichgeschlechtlichen Sex meinte. Das Notfallgesetz erlaubt es der Polizei außerdem, in deine Wohnung einzudringen, ohne einen Durchsuchungsbefehl zu haben. </div><div class="bodytext"><b>Spielen Rechte für LGBTs eine Rolle in den momentanen Protesten, oder sollten sie es?</b><br />
Ich glaube nicht, dass wir schon genug Freiheit oder Demokratie haben, um in Ägypten LGBT-Rechte zu fordern. </div><div class="bodytext"><b>Was können LGBTs außerhalb Ägyptens tun, um euch zu unterstützen?</b><br />
Internationale LGBT-Organisationen haben uns immer geholfen und tun es noch: Sie sorgen dafür, dass unsere Stimme per Internet und Medien gehört werden, sie üben Druck auf die Regierung aus, wenn diese Homosexuelle verhaften lässt und schaffen ein Bewusstsein für unsere Situation.<br />
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<b>Musst du als schwuler und kritischer Blogger momentan irgendetwas befürchten?</b> <br />
Die Angst und das Risiko verhaftet zu werden, ist immer da. </div><div class="bodytext"><i>Interview: Christian Mentz </i></div><div class="bodytext"><i><a href="http://www.siegessaeule.de/queere-welt/icequeer-der-gay-blogger-aus-aegypten.html">Siegessäule.de </a></i><br />
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<div style="color: red;"><b><i>Update #1 (Feb20):</i></b></div><i>Interview is mentioned also <a href="http://www.digigop.nl/indexredirect.php?url=/nieuws/php/output.php?nieuwsid=7198">here</a></i></div><h3></h3></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-73453131196335208142011-02-09T18:05:00.002+02:002011-03-09T20:57:18.697+02:00My radio interview with Michelangelo Signorile on OutQ radio - US<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3dqJg8OiRoQR3_jWR0IipdXPk77dbaaIAXacBUEEn5wdE2sNRr_gCTxAnei2THeTWlvb7jIC2Hhn05qHtnsPA-_KuBRWTTftfQI_PkgvJKL-NcqeCRcfYuiAdZp2Pa6dyv9Tat-GgqxTp/s1600/Image1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3dqJg8OiRoQR3_jWR0IipdXPk77dbaaIAXacBUEEn5wdE2sNRr_gCTxAnei2THeTWlvb7jIC2Hhn05qHtnsPA-_KuBRWTTftfQI_PkgvJKL-NcqeCRcfYuiAdZp2Pa6dyv9Tat-GgqxTp/s1600/Image1.jpg" /> </a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"> You can listen to my interview now on Signorile's <a href="http://www.signorile.com/2011/02/interview-with-gay-blogger-from-cairo.html">blog</a>, tell me what u think?</div><br />
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<div style="clear: both;"></div></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-69429942581197195962011-02-05T00:56:00.006+02:002011-03-12T23:45:30.190+02:00Cruising is out in Tahrir Square - Updated 12-3-2011<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div align="center" style="text-align: left;"><b>Cario, 04.02.11</b></div><div align="center" style="text-align: left;"><b>Interview by Dan Littauer with "IceQueer", an <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/">Egyptian gay blogger</a></b><a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/"> </a></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>GME: Tell us a little about yourself...</b><br />
IQ: I'm 22 years old Egyptian Moroccan guy, I'm a medical intern and interested in activism, politics, religions, music and lots of different things <br />
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<b>GME: What is your blog all about?</b><br />
IQ: It's about my thoughts and my perception of reality. Sometimes I feel it's like a non-stop documentary of some parts of my life and my personality. <br />
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<b>GME: When did you start the blog and why?</b><br />
IQ: I started in July 2008. It was a coincidence and a funny story actually; electricity was off at home so I thought of playing around with my laptop's pen and there it was my first post! Also the blog name in the beginning was "My thoughts & confessions" then I changed it to its current name after the first post.<br />
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<b>GME: Do have a lot of gay readers following your blog? What kind of responses are you getting?</b><br />
IQ: Well I can never be 100% sure of the number of readers/followers because how can you count readers who don't leave comments or follow the blog through blogger but according to the blog's stats, number of comments and number of followers, I guess I've a lot of gay and straight readers following my blog.<br />
I get all kinds of responses and I approve and answer them all, actually comments are some of the things that keep me going and keep writing.<br />
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<b>GME: You were in Tahrir square on Tuesday, describe what was it like?</b><br />
IQ: I guess I was lucky because the day I went to Tahrir's demo was a very peaceful day after police's violence was over and before the attack of Mubarak's thugs (Thursday). It felt amazingly peaceful and cheerful. I loved how diverse yet finally united Egypt is! I was holding a sign saying "Secular" in Arabic, English & French and also my friends(straight, gay, girls, Christian and Muslims) were holding similar signs and we all were chanting that this protest is for the people and not for any party or religion. Everything was really beautiful and looked like a European carnival!</div><div class="MsoNormal">Before internet was shut down, I was very active on my <a href="http://twitter.com/IceQueer">twitter page</a> and facebook raising awareness about how important #Jan25 is and that we all should participate. I never knew that facebook and twitter can be that powerful and that the things you tweet can actually make a change even if it's a little change like correcting someone's information </div><div align="left" class="MsoNormal"><img align="middle" border="0" height="375" src="http://gaymiddleeast.com/pic/egypt/I2.jpg" width="500" /><br />
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<b>GME: You mentioned you were helping people in hospital, are there many people hurt? Any of your friends or family?</b><br />
IQ: Yes, unfortunately many people were injured as the numbers said on News channels. My family and non-Egyptian boyfriend were safe but some of my friends had minor superficial injuries and also 3 guys I know were detained on the 25th of Jan but were released the next day. It's funny that most of Egyptian homosexuals fear police arrest but I was happy that those 3 guys were arrested because of a great cause like Jan25! Very honourable.<br />
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<b>GME: We see reports of international journalists being attacked now in Egypt, but how are local journalists and bloggers are being treated?</b><br />
IQ: Actually it's not about being foreigner or local, it's always about the news agency you work for and the things you blog/tweet about. So the more you are honest and scandalous about the regime, the more chances you get detained!<br />
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<b>GME: What kind of changes do the people want to see?</b><br />
IQ: Like we all chanted; Freedom, Social Justice and Democracy. And all of this will change by removal of Mubarak & his regime, dissolution of Parliament, ending the Emergency state/law and that High Court's judges should supervise the elections.<br />
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<b>GME: Do you think there will be a transition to a democracy in Egypt now?</b><br />
IQ: I'm hopeful that there will be a transition but first we've to get rid of stereotypes and medieval ideologies that unfortunately many people have in Egypt due to lack of proper education. Jan25 all started by the educated and well politically-aware youth of Egypt.<br />
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<b>GME: Does this revolution have a leader or leaders?</b><br />
IQ: No it doesn't have a leader or leaders, it's a revolution by Egypt's youth against a corrupted regime. This revolution is peoples' revolution and doesn't follow any political party or religious party.<br />
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<b>GME: Some commentators have expressed their concern about the Muslims Brotherhood’s influence in the case of a change in Egypt, how realistic is such a concern?</b><br />
IQ: I don't think MBs would have such an "influence" that would affect majority of Egyptians and Egypt.<br />
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<b>GME: I suppose its too risky and even counter productive to ask directly for LGBT rights in the protests, but how do you see these issues in the context of the revolution and larger Human Rights agenda?</b><br />
IQ: You can't ask for lots of changes that have different effect on people, I mean already asking for "Freedom" and "Fall of regime" bedazzled the whole country and its people so imagine what would happen if we asked for LGBT rights?<br />
I believe that Egypt's LGBT community can only have its rights when Egypt becomes a real secular country.<br />
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<b>GME: Can you describe the social/cultural situation for LGBT people in Egypt in the last few years?</b><br />
IQ: It's diverse and it's like most of LGBT communities around the world; you've all kinds of social and culture differences from deeply conservatives to utterly liberal. But the exposure to western media via internet and TV helped a lot of people in understanding more about their sexuality and how to accept it...etc I already see that the new generation takes less time in accepting their sexuality than older generation used to <br />
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<b>GME: Can you be out and gay in Egypt?</b><br />
IQ: It depends on your personality, your social class, your friends and your family. For me, I'm openly gay to my parents and all of my close straight friends. <br />
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<b>GME: Are you out to some people in Egypt, and if yes, what kind of responses do you get?</b><br />
IQ: Like I said before, I'm out to all of my close friends. You get various responses, some would say they wouldn't lose a friend just because you've different preferences in bed, some would go into long tiring debates with you whether homosexuality is sinful or not and whether it's a choice or not...etc. Again it all depends on one's personality, social environment and religious background.<br />
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<b>GME: How do people meet each other?</b><br />
IQ: Mostly through dating website on the internet but you can also meet guys in private house gay parties and gatherings.<br />
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<b>GME: Tell us about the legal situation… We understand that although there are no direct laws prohibiting same sex acts, we understand that other laws are enacted, like Public Order & Public Morals (as in the infamous case of Cairo52), and quite a few cases of people arrested through speaking with agents on chat rooms and gay dating websites… Can you elaborate on that?</b><br />
IQ: Exactly, there is no direct laws prohibiting same sex acts or relationship but they usually affiliate it with Debauchery, Public Morals & Order.<br />
The thing is that most of policemen play around a lot with words and the bugs in Egyptian law, they usually trap suspects by using words like debauchery when they ask them whether they practice same-sex sex or not, so they make suspects admit that they practice "debauchery" even though the suspect may only meant that he practice same-sex sex.<br />
Also the emergency law gives the ability to policemen to check ur apartment without a warranty if they wanted.<br />
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<b>GME: Any specific changes, relating to these two issues mentioned above, that Egyptian lesbian, gay, and transgender people hoping to see?</b><br />
IQ: We're hoping that Egypt would become a real Secular country one day, that's when people learn to accept their differences then they would start accept people who r sexually different than they are. </div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal"><img align="middle" border="0" height="375" src="http://gaymiddleeast.com/pic/egypt/I3.jpg" width="500" /></div><b>GME: It’s a little bit symbolic that Tahrir square is also known as a meeting place for gay people, isn’t it?</b><br />
IQ: Haha yeah I made lots of puns about this exact thing when I met up my friends in Tahrir to protest. I was like "A week ago, if I told you let's meet in Tahrir then go walk down to Kasr El-Nil bridge, you'd have judged me as a sleazy trashy gay guy"<br />
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<b>GME: What can the international LGBT community do to help the general situation in Egypt and in particular the LGBT communities in Egypt?</b><br />
IQ: If democratic political reforms happened in Egypt, international LGBT communities can help a lot of course by putting pressure on Egyptian regime to apply this kind of reforms too which are under the same umbrella of democratic reforms.<br />
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<b>(Source: <a href="http://gaymiddleeast.com/news/news%20265.htm">GayMiddleEast</a>) </b><br />
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<div style="color: #cc0000;"><b>Update Feb5:</b></div><b>Interview is also published now on <a href="http://lezgetreal.com/2011/02/cairo-cruising-is-out-in-tahrir-square-an-interview/">LezGetReal</a></b><br />
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<b><span style="color: #990000;">Update Feb9: </span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="color: black;">-Interview is translated into German and published on <a href="http://www.queer.de/detail.php?article_id=13635">Queer.de</a></span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="color: black;">-Interview is translated in Spanish and published on <a href="http://ensentidocontrario.com/6212/situacion-de-la-comunidad-lgtb-en-egipto-desde-la-mirada-de-un-blogger-gay-local/">Ensentidocontrario</a></span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="color: black;">-Interview is published also on <a href="http://www.xtra.ca/blog/national/post/2011/02/08/Cruising-for-gay-sex-and-democracy-in-Tahrir-square.aspx%20">Xtra.ca</a></span></span></b><br />
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<div style="color: purple;"><b>Update Feb14:</b></div><b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="color: black;">Mentioned in:</span></span></b><br />
<b>-Egypte: des LGBT au coeur de la révolte - <a href="http://www.tetu.com/actualites/international/egypte-des-lgbt-au-coeur-de-la-revolte-18799">Têtu</a></b><br />
<b>-C’est plus le moment de draguer sur la Place Tahrir - <a href="http://360.ch/magazine/2011/02/plus-le-moment-de-draguer-place-tahrir/">:: 360° :: le magazine lgbt de Suisse romande</a></b><br />
<b>-Egipto y la esperanza LGBT - <a href="http://www.dosmanzanas.com/2011/02/egipto-y-la-esperanza-lgtb.html">Dos Manzanas</a></b> <br />
<b>-Mubarak kaatui - entä nyt? - <a href="http://ranneliike.net/teema/mubarak-kaatui---enta-nyt?cid=10&aid=5146">Ranneliike</a> (Finnish)</b><br />
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<div style="color: red;"><b>Update Feb25:</b></div><b>Translated into Dutch and got published on <a href="http://holebiplus.skynetblogs.be/archive/2011/02/21/egypte-tahrirplein-is-trefplaats-voor-homo-s.html">Holebiplus</a></b><br />
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<div style="color: #b45f06;"><b>Update March12:</b></div><b>-Translated into Turkish and got published on <a href="http://www.kaosgl.org/icerik/misirli_geyler_cark_attiklari_tahrirde_bugun_ozgurluk_slogani_atiyorlar">Kaos GL</a></b><br />
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<b>2560 Internacional Egipto y la esperanza LGTB - <a href="http://www.glosschile.com/profiles/blogs/2560-internacional-egipto-y-la">Gloss Chile</a></b></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-26066937711653037252011-01-23T02:30:00.003+02:002011-01-23T02:39:49.274+02:00“Ein gewisses Risiko bleibt immer”<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><i>Er ist schwul und schreibt darüber. Nichts weiter besonderes, könnte man meinen. Doch Blogger "Ice Queer" lebt in Ägypten und bricht gleicht doppelt die Tabus: Dort steht Homosexualität unter Strafe und gilt als Krankheit. Über Sex spricht man allgemein nicht. Trotzdem berichtet er von seinen sexuellen Abenteuern. Ein Gespräch über das Coming Out in einem islamischen Land, anschließende Therapieversuche und das Risiko, von der Polizei besucht zu werden.</i><br />
Interview: Jan Hendrik Hinzel<br />
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<b>Schreibt darüber, wie es sich als Schwuler in einem islamischen Land lebt: Blogger "Ice Queer"</b><br />
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<b>Wir treffen uns in einem Café am Nil. Die Haare hat der Blogger "Ice Queer" zu einem Mohawk aufgerichtet. Aus der Tasche seiner engen Hose kramt er eine zerdrückte Schachtel Zigaretten hervor. Er weist noch einmal darauf hin, dass er bitte anonym bleiben wolle. Schließlich ist schwul sein in Ägypten nicht erlaubt. Seit etwa zwei Jahren schreibt er aber darüber. Unter www.confessions-room.blogspot.com erzählt er davon, wie es sich als Schwuler in Kairo leben lässt. In der Selbstbeschreibungsrubrik "Mehr über mich" auf seiner Seite verkündet er: "Dieses Blog ist schon zu viel Information." Und tatsächlich: Er schreibt nicht nur über seine Therapiesitzungen, sondern plaudert auch Details aus seinem Sexleben aus.</b><br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wie kommt man dazu, in einem Land, in dem Homosexualität verboten ist, ausgerechnet über sein Sexleben als Schwuler zu schreiben?<br />
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<b>Ice-Queer:</b> Es geht ja nicht nur um mein Sexleben. Es geht vielmehr allgemein um mein Leben. Und Sex ist eben ein großer Teil davon. Aber nicht in allen meinen Beiträge geht es um Sex. Ich schreibe oft auch nur meine Meinung zu bestimmten Themen. Es gibt nicht viele Blogs dieser Art und ich hatte eben den Mut dazu.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Du gehst aber doch an recht vielen Stellen – auch wenn es um Sex geht, bis ins Detail, beschreibst Personen. Und die Schwulenszene von Kairo gilt als klein. Wie groß ist die Gefahr enttarnt zu werden, wenn jeder jeden zu kennen scheint?<br />
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<b>Ice-Queer:</b> Ich verwende in meinem Blog nur falsche Namen. Die Chance, dass meine Identität oder die von irgendwem anders auffliegt, ist gering. Und selbst wenn andere Schwule wissen, wer ich bin: Sie würden mich nicht bei der Polizei verpetzen. Sie sind ja selbst schwul. Da hält man zusammen.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Aber nicht alle deiner Bekanntschaften kommen in deinem Blog gut weg. Was, wenn sie sich rächen wollen?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Viele der beschriebenen Bekanntschaften wissen ja gar nichts von meinem Blog. Und selbst wenn: Dann müsste die Polizei erst einmal beweisen, dass ich der Verfasser bin. Und ich bin ja kein politischer Blogger, der die Regierung kritisiert. Ich schreibe nur über mein eigenes Leben und eben über Sex. Das schert die Polizei einen Dreck. Es wurde noch nie ein schwuler Blogger festgenommen oder sonst irgendwer, der über Sex geschrieben hat. Zumindest nicht, dass ich wüsste.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Du klingst fest überzeugt. Wie kannst du dir sicher sein, dass dich nicht doch jemand an die Polizei berichtet?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Es gibt in allem was du machst immer ein gewisses Risiko. Auch wenn du dich mit jemandem Online verabredest, kann es sein, dass dir dann ein Polizist gegenüber steht. Man kommt aber nicht weiter, wenn man sich zu viele Gedanken macht.<br />
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<i>Bisher auf Englisch und jetzt auch auf Arabisch: Ice Queers Blog "Confessions Room".</i><br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Hast du Angst, irgendwann zensiert zu werden?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Hier in Ägypten, nein. In Saudi-Arabien bin ich aber schon zensiert. Da war ich zuerst erschrocken. Inzwischen finde ich es aber ganz lustig. Und das spricht sich natürlich auch hier in Ägypten rum. Dann ist das gute Werbung für mein Blog.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wie bekannt ist dein Blog überhaupt unter Kairos Schwulen?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Einer meiner besten Freunde hat mein Blog gelesen, bevor ich ihn kannte. Er hatte mich auf einer Party angesprochen und ich hatte mich mit meinem marokkanischem (Der Blogger ist halb Marokkaner; Anmerkung der Redaktion) Namen vorgestellt. Den verwende ich auch im Blog ab und zu. Dann hat er nachgefragt und es so rausgefunden. Zur Zeit habe ich etwa 40 regelmäßige Leser. Viele davon kennen auch meine wahre Identität. Je nachdem, was ich schreibe, wird der Link weitergeschickt. Es kann dann schon passieren, dass ich auf einer Party auf Beiträge angesprochen werde.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Du beschreibst zum Beispiel, wie du es mit deinem Freund auf der Terasse treibst. Ist es dir nicht peinlich, dass deine Bekannten, die über dich und dein Blog Bescheid wissen, dein Intimleben kennen?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Nein. Mit meinen Freunden unterhalte mich ja auch einfach so über Sex. Wenn auch nicht immer so im Detail…<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Deine Leser können deine Blogeinträge kommentieren? Was schreiben sie?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Viele erzählen von ihren eigenen Erfahrungen oder stellen Nachfragen. Oder sie sagen einfach ihre Meinung. Dabei sind die meisten Einträge eher positiv. Es kommt aber auch vor, dass sich irgendwelche homophoben Typen auf meine Seite verirren und dann ihrem Hass freien Lauf lassen.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wie sehr ist man diesem Hass im Alltag ausgesetzt? Wie lebt es sich überhaupt als Schwuler in Ägypten?<br />
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<i>"Mein Therapeut versucht mir einzureden, dass es an meinen Eltern und ihrer Erziehung liegt"</i><br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Es ist immer noch ein Tabuthema und alles spielt sich im Untergrund ab. Ich selbst habe Glück, dass ich meinen Eltern davon erzählen konnte. Sie haben damit keine Probleme, was auch nicht üblich ist in Ägypten. Es hängt auch vieles von der sozialen Schicht ab. In gebildeten Familien ist man da vielleicht toleranter. Wobei man hier auch keine allgemein gültige Aussage treffen kann. Häufig wird es von vielen nach wie vor als Krankheit betrachtet und es gilt als Sünde.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Du selbst musstest auch zu einem Therapeuten gehen.<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Ja. Er spricht aber zum Beispiel nicht von einer Krankheit. Er sucht die Ursachen in der Kindheit oder darin, dass ich nie eine heterosexuelle Beziehung hatte und deswegen einfach nicht wüsste, was besser ist. Er versucht mir einzureden, dass es an meinen Eltern und ihrer Erziehung liegt, dass ich schwul bist. Das ist alles Unsinn. Ich hatte eine glückliche Kindheit.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Du bist sehr selbstbewusst und gehst offen mit deiner Sexualität um. Wie reagieren andere Schwule auf dich?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Viele Schwule haben Angst vor mir. Ich bin geoutet und habe in meinem jungen Alter schon einiges ausprobiert. Ich bin jetzt 21 und schon seit sieben Jahren in der Schwulenszene unterwegs. Aber schon allein die Vorstellung, offen schwul zu sein, ist für viele Männer hier unmöglich. Sie hätten viel zu viel Angst vor den gesellschaftlichen Konsequenzen. Ein Coming-Out wäre für manche sicherlich gesellschaftlicher Selbstmord. Ich hingegen muss mir keine wirklichen Gedanken mehr um meinen Ruf machen. Manche sind darauf vielleicht auch neidisch.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Was würdest du diesen Schwulen, die ihre Sexualität im Geheimen ausleben müssen, empfehlen?<br />
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<i>"Ein Mädchen wird Dir vermittelt. Willst Du einen Jungen, geht das eher schlecht"</i><br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Ich würde ihnen nicht raten, sich zu outen. Bei mir ging es zwar gut. Aber manche würden sicherlich gleich von ihrer Familie verstoßen werden. Und auch sonst: Willst du ein Mädchen kennen lernen, können dir die Eltern ein Date verschaffen. Heiratsoption inklusive.Willst du aber einen anderen Jungen, geht das eher schlecht.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wird sich die Lage für Homosexuelle in Ägypten in den nächsten Jahren ändern? Wenn ja, wie?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Ich glaube, es wird besser werden. Viele Menschen sind sich mittlerweile überhaupt der Existenz von Schwulen und Lesben bewusst. Manche leugnen bis heute, dass es so etwas gibt. Wir jungen Leute wachsen alle mit westlichen Fernsehserien auf, in denen oft ein schwuler Charakter vorkommt und wo das völlig normal ist. Die Menschen haben immer Angst vor dem, was sie nicht kennen. Aber gerade durch solche Serien werden ihnen vielleicht etwas von dieser Angst genommen.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Würdest du deinen Blog ebenfalls als Mittel zur Aufklärung bezeichnen?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Nein, auf keinen Fall. Hier geht es nur um meine persönlichen Erlebnisse und Meinungen.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wieso schreibst du dann nicht einfach Tagebuch? Wenn du alles öffentlich machst, musst du ja wollen, das dass jemand liest?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Ja, ich will schon gelesen werden. In den zwei Jahren, die ich jetzt schon schreibe, haben sogar knapp 29 000 Leser meine Seite besucht. Ich war sogar schon in einem Beitrag der BBC. Es geht mir eher um den Gedankenaustausch. Ich möchte, dass die Leute auf meine Beiträge antworten und sehen, wie sie reagieren. Darum mache ich das alles öffentlich.<br />
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<b>Soukmagazine:</b> Wie geht es jetzt mit deinem Blog weiter?<br />
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<b>Ice Queer:</b> Ich bin mir nicht sicher. Zur Zeit bin ich etwas uninspiriert. Vielleicht will ich das alles später als Buch herausbringen. Dafür muss ich aber erst noch einige Dinge mehr erleben, über die ich schreiben kann.<br />
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<b>(</b><i>Source: http://www.soukmagazine.de/leben/ein-gewisses-risiko-bleibt-immer/</i> <b>)</b></div>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-7077848229788056942011-01-09T20:30:00.000+02:002011-01-09T20:30:16.284+02:00LimboIt's been so long since I last wrote something. Sometimes I write down random thoughts that cross my mind, sometimes I visualize a post in my head but I don't get inspired enough to fully write it on my blog. I used to be more private about what goes on on my mind in order not to freak people out or provoke them but in the last couple of years I became more and more open about expressing my mind & my emotions to my friends and specially my boyfriend to the extent that a blog doesn't make it for me anymore. It does no longer satisfy my sick urge to break and push people's limit to the extreme. <br />
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I'm looking now into this (700 x 340 pixel) box where me & my alter-ego are supposed to type what we want to express to the whole virtual world, although the box can expand with words as much as I want but I've a feeling that I grew out of it. I can't expand with it and it won't respond back, it's too submissive, it doesn't challenge me enough and no matter how much it expands, I can still feel its lame limits.<br />
It doesn't bond with me like how Snow in Vienna did! It's not that cold, calm, powerful, shiny and Icy. But even though I connected with the snowy nature and had my lovely boyfriend with me, there was always an itching feeling that there is something missing; sometimes it itched me in the shape of my friends back in Cairo, sometimes it itched as homesickness, sometimes it itched as missing challenges when it was so easy to get anyone I want in the club or sexclub or sauna or online with no chase or the need to communicate verbally.<br />
I got so confused with those mixed feelings, itches and the idea of moving to Europe. I felt like I'm in a state of limbo and wondered If one wakes up at a different time, in a different place, could one wakes up as a different person?<br />
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There I was, enjoying(slightly abusing) the near-perfect European life standards so why I was missing grumpy old Cairo? The idea of "Identity of one changes with how one perceives reality" made me realize that it took me loads of time and effort to reach a certain belonging to Egypt/Cairo as a living life and that I'm not sure if I can go through this whole process again somewhere else. It will be like building my whole life all over again? I'm very satisfied now with my boyfriend, my close friends and how my life is going in Egypt. I can make it better in the future for sure but I'm not sure if I'll be able to switch off, restart and then switch on in a different place!<br />
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But then again the "Living in limbo is better than dying in jail?" question and the idea that at some point my bf will leave Egypt are still killing me!Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-89976552225383391252010-11-11T22:45:00.000+02:002010-11-11T22:45:04.057+02:00Gayja-vu?<blockquote><i>"So tell you what? We're gonna forget about Mr. Huxley today and we're gonna talk about fear. Fear, after all, is our real enemy. Fear is taking over our world. Fear is being used as a tool of manipulation in our society. It's how politicians peddle policy. It's how Madison Avenue sells us things that we don't need. Think about it. Fear of being attacked. Fear of that there are communists lurking around every corner. Fear of that some little Caribbean country that doesn't believe in our way of life poses a threat to us. Fear that black culture may take over the world. Fear of Elvis Presley's hips. Actually, maybe that one is a real fear. Fear that our bad breath might ruin our friendships. Fear of growing old and being alone. The of that we're useless and that no one cares what we have to say."</i> <br />
<b>Prof. George Huxley - "<a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1315981/">A single man</a>" movie</blockquote></b><br />
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After watching this outstanding movie, this particular quote moved me a lot. I related to it and felt that it spoke to me, I actually wrote about fear in my very first blog <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2008/07/get-life-people.html">post</a>!<br />
We all live in fear indeed! But it's not only about what we are afraid of, I believe it's more about our inner fears. No matter how well we hide them and how much we want to believe that there is nothing out there to fear! We all get into "fear" episodes every now and then; Fear that one of the gay-affiliated places in Egypt would turn into another "Queen boat" fiasco. Fear that one day the country's regime would drive you into seeking asylum in an European/Western country. Fear that one day you'd get arrested because I'm a homosexual blogger. Fear of self-loathing homosexuals even more than homophobes. Fear that blogs like mine and yours would be blamed by closeted-cases for spotting the light on homosexuals in Egypt. Fear that my blog would be some kind of a self-documentary that I'd hate one day. Fear that others unreason you in order to safeguard their own idea of reality. The Fear of both atheists and believers that their belief could be just an Utopian escape/denial from reality. Fear that my parents would know about my atheism. Fear that <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Salafi">Salafism</a> would become the norm!<br />
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Fear that you're too narcissistic that you'd turn yourself on. Fear of the truth that you could be too much of a whore. Fear that your eyes would squint instead of rolling back in your head while orgazming. Fear of losing your sexual stamina. Fear that you were just caught up in the moment and it meant more to you than the other person. Fear that others don't see hickeys sexy and aphrodisiac but rather unclassy and cheap. Fear of HIV!<br />
Fear that you might have messiah complex but you don't know it yet, and this explains all the corrupted guys you have dated. Fear of love to the extent that it takes you some time to truly believe that you are in love. Fear that you'd miss your single life although you are in a healthy relationship. Fear that your bf would easily leave you. Fear that you'd screw up your relationship because you are too self absorbed to put yourself in anyone else's shoes. Fear that you would suffocate your better half with your draining love. Fear that you'd get sexually bored of your bf. Fear that your mood swings would become so severe to the extent that you'd swing out of love. Fear that you lose the one you love because of reasons beyond you and him. Fear that a feisty Pisces would bite off your Scorpio tail and head one day!<br />
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Fear that you won't attend a Madonna's concert before you die or she quits, whichever is sooner. Fear that you're really as stereotypical as everybody else. Fear of not belonging. Fear of not liking it if you belonged. Fear of feeling so left out. Fear of losing control. Fear that things don't end up the way you want. Fear of making no sense. Fear of making too much sense. Fear of letting go. Fear of losing your possessions. Fear that even your thoughts would be judged. Fear of rather being good than happy. Fear that you're not as good or evil as people give you credit for. Fear that you would no longer differentiate between sins and evil. Fear that you would no longer be able to quiet that voice in your head that keeps saying "maybe I shouldn't!". Fear that you would get completely startled and donno what to say. Fear that you reduce to hysterics under the slightest bit of stress. Fear that you'd become so anti-social that the bathroom of any party/place would be your only sanctuary. Fear that people just make different choices but in the end life is all hard for us. Fear that you may be subconsciously pushing your friends into ending their friendship with you. Fear that everything and everyone in your life could be just a toy whether sexual or emotional or friendlish one..etc and you keep changing them or swinging from one to another then destroying it. Fear of cutting your hand not to die but to erase your inner pain by physically outing it to the world. Fear of self destruction...!<br />
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The amount of fears varies and that's how our personalities are shaped and how our inhibitions & repressions are made up, but what calm down your fears is your friends, your beloved one or maybe your psychiatrist and sometimes your drug of choice!Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-72071938040625424522010-10-17T09:44:00.001+02:002010-10-17T14:55:32.444+02:00Ich habe keine Geduld!I feel that for my entire life, I've always been running in some kind of a mental marathon and I've rarely caught my breath. I keep running away from the past, pushing the present and running so fast to the future. Running against social norms and violating them. Running against livid states of body, running against useless emotions, running over my demons, running into nihilistic states of mind. Running into denial, running away from denial, running away from my mother's sheer pressure, running away from my father's passive aggression, running away from psychological clichés, running into dehumanizing, running with an agenda, running to scheming, plotting and manipulating. Running with questions, running for answers, running with snide sarcasm. Running over thorns to get my roses. Running away from gray zones, preconceptions and prejudice. Running far beyond my limits, my age, my maturity and my perception. Running to perfection, running away from the void, emptiness, living bubbles. Running away from my ivory tower.<br />
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I feel that my body is trapped in the present while my mind is in the future and my soul keeps going back and forth, sometimes it stays in a twilight zone and sometimes it goes in a different tense of time that I'm not sure how to explain but it's more like an oblivion or a parallel world!<br />
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I also feel that I push others to run when they cover up their failures by their self-claimed mental disabilities. Also When they think they can't keep up running with me, when they get intimidated, when they run back to their cocoons, when they inhibit their inner whore, when they are not cavalier about love and sex. When they are a Freudian nightmare, when they cling into norms, when they make a whole gay parade out of it. When they think they are right, when they think they are wrong. When I see right through them and when they no longer challenge me.<br />
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But the worst thing is to stop running, you feel empty and maybe that's how we get asphyxiated and the after-life is just the complete void that you keep running away from!<br />
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So shall I stop or shall you stop me? Or Who should stop whom?<br />
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<i>P.S I already have two unfinished posts in draft but I don't know what happened that made my thoughts flow smoothly into writing this post, but I like it when this kind of inspiration happens randomly!</i>Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-2753470182631456752010-09-13T13:36:00.003+03:002010-09-14T12:02:42.294+03:00De Vienna rowda mel Ganna!I really donno where or how to start writing about my trip to Vienna to celebrate 1st anniversary with <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2009/10/not-so-icy-after-all.html">Sunny</a>. The city is really amazing; well-organized, breathtaking architecture, great urban planning and it's too green that it looked like a big golf course from the plane! You also get to feel at night that "the city really slept". When everything closes down. When you feel that every simple thing has a sound, so you start wondering what kind of shape does the silence have? A shape of an umbrella to protect you against the rain of the little noise that the city has? Or maybe it's a package, where the secret comes from!<br />
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Being with Sunny in his home country was amazing, I saw a side of him that I never saw before. It made me feel him more, his culture, his way of thinking, his lifestyle. I was so happy when he was showing me around and telling me this and that about his country and its endless stories.<br />
It was the perfect timing in our relationship for this trip, Although I was a little bit worried if it will be suffocating to live together for 2 weeks but to the contrary, it felt great! I loved every second of it! I loved the idea of being able to instantly tell him anything on my mind without having to text him or call him or waiting until I see him. I also feel-now that I'm back to Cairo-that now is the time for the step of moving in together so that our relationship grow even more.<br />
Being the "foreigner" felt kind of weird but in a good way, they don't stare at you in the streets like here in Egypt, nobody would judge you or point or make fun of you even if you were wearing a crazy outfit. It makes you feel that people here in Egypt have literally got no life, they are stuck in a vicious circle of corrupted or misunderstood religions, politics, norms..etc! <br />
It was very liberating not to feel "odd" or "not fitting in" or to be able to kiss in public(cheesy but I couldn't help it) or publicly display intimacy or simply not having to "justify your love"! I felt it even more when I've met his family, had dinners with them, got closer to them, felt welcomed and they're just so...so complete in a way. Like they have something that I will never have, ever. Either I wasn't born with it, or it was beaten out of me, or maybe, maybe I made myself into a self-fulfilling prophecy, and I really am a borderline personality. Or maybe I excessively believed that you cannot design a life that works without first drafting a clear blueprint. And you cannot construct a life that has meaning without first laying a solid foundation. You are the architect of your life. Not your emotionally distant father. Not your overly critical mother. Not your petty, fair-weather friends. You!<br />
It made me wonder; what are we supposed to believe? That the same god who made us wants us to be lonely & frustrated all our lives while the rest of world is free to make love and have families? And if it's what God intended, to have a family, to have faith, and to have a normal life. And if God challenges us like this, so we'll choose good, so we'll triumph over evil. Then it's not a choice. God already made the choice for me!<br />
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Being with someone really changes you somehow. You become less self-centered. You start thinking about everything in your life in a different way, even the little tiny details. You smile whenever your partner thinks or says the same thing like you in the same time. You wouldn't feel insecure when he sees through your walls. You feel that there is still more to your relationship in the future just when you see a certain look in his eyes, or when you discover interesting sides of him every now and then, or when he discovers a new spot in your body that you never knew before how much it turns you on, or when your anniversary dinner is on the Danube just like how your first date was on the Nile!<br />
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P.S the post title is a tribute for <a href="http://www.asmahan.com/">Asmahan</a>'s "<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIhm8Gq4miQ">Layali El Ons</a>" song about Vienna<br />
PPS you can <a href="http://twitter.com/IceQueer">follow me</a> on twitter now!Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-87241536811163088972010-08-04T23:25:00.003+03:002010-08-07T04:55:04.150+03:00In a search for a sanctuaryI don't really know what I'm supposed to feel right now. Is anger what I'm feeling right now? Or is it depression? or being clueless? or just plain sadness? And if it's any of that, who or what should I be feeling that at/about?<br />
Psychology says that when you lack empathy and don't know what emotion you are feeling or should be feeling then you are a psychopath. So, am I one?<br />
They say that psychopathy can get a bad rap. it doesn't necessarily mean you are violent. Just that you're completely without conscience, you lack any normal emotion, you manipulate everyone around you, you're promiscuous and you lie pathologically.<br />
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What am I supposed to do when I feel clueless? when I'm trying so hard to get a travel permit to leave the country just for two weeks to celebrate my anniversary with my <a href="http://confessions-room.blogspot.com/2009/10/not-so-icy-after-all.html">better half</a> but the military authorities make it harder and harder for me, no matter how hard I try! And just because they have more power over you, they abuse it to feel superior or to feel a pathetic sense of self-worth. I wish that just once people wouldn't patronizingly act like the clichés that they are!<br />
I mean what's the worst thing that would happen? that I'd leave, never come back and skip my ridiculous army nonsense service? Even if that happened, so what?! Why do they give a fuck! We are a population of 80 million, what will tragically happen if one or two or even a million guy left and skipped their obligatory service? They already can skip the service even without leaving the country, so it's not logical at all what they are doing!<br />
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And it even pisses me off more when people think they can control your life just because they have bigger power over you. If you are living in a third world country that is ruled by the army then all military authorities have more power over you. If you are living in a country that's not secular then all men of religion have a power over you. Well, fuck you all! You all need to understand that you can't control things. Nobody can. There's only one thing that's certain; Everything changes.<br />
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I'm not blowing this out of proportion and I'm not acting like a drama queen. I'm just so pissed right now. I wish I can just get upset without having to focus on what's really making me upset! ARGHH!@#*^%$^!Ice Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7857488379709501798.post-11539492298505441112010-07-12T20:23:00.015+03:002010-07-13T02:15:04.982+03:00حين ميسرة<blockquote>This post had to be written in Arabic slang(you'll know later why) and it contains explicit sexual content which of course will be more tearing to your eyes when it's written in Arabic slang, also because BBC said that we(Egyptian gays) are more comfortable talking about sex only in English, so here you go! And you've been warned!<br /><br />التدوينة دى كان لازم تبقى بالعامية المصرية(هتعرفوا السبب بعد شوية)و محتواها ممكن يكون ابيح زيادة عن اللزوم لشوية منكم و لشوية تانيين لأ! بس انا واثق ان السعودية حتحمد ربنا انها منعت البلوج بتاعى من قبل ما التدوينة دى تتنشر</blockquote><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">المشهد الأول</span><br />سافرت اسكندرية يوم الاتنين اللى فات مع ماما و اختى عشان نغير جو و كمان كان بفى لهن سنين ما راحوش اسكندرية. المهم, نزلنا فى شقة كان الشارع بتاعها ضيق فخفت على العربية(السيارة بالسعودى) تتخبط او تتجرح, فبواب العمارة(كتر خيره) قال لى ان فى جراج بعدينا بعمارتين ممكن اركن فيه بعشرة جنيه فى الليلة, فدخلت الجراج و ركنت, الجراج عبارة عند ارض كبيرة فاضية ملك شركة ما و بانيين عليها بيوت صغيرة كدا شبه العشوائيات نوعا ما.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOdyi3kUSj3wBy8uluCXMAskj3VYROnECwq5pgdf6cIIBmDKLDQHUP8DKXi8ypuJf8E80Z8leiGpOzD0qJ8szZUSXjwz0q9hdnW_euesZtofaZPn0oJTaTKllxYg0mMbCJlmbaNpCtRegI/s1600/10072010274.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 190px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOdyi3kUSj3wBy8uluCXMAskj3VYROnECwq5pgdf6cIIBmDKLDQHUP8DKXi8ypuJf8E80Z8leiGpOzD0qJ8szZUSXjwz0q9hdnW_euesZtofaZPn0oJTaTKllxYg0mMbCJlmbaNpCtRegI/s320/10072010274.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493111760015035250" /></a><br /><br />نفس اليوم باليل لما دخلت الجراج تانى بعد ما كنت مع اهلى شفت "عبده" سايس من سياس الجراج! طويل, رفيع, ناشف, عنده دقن تقيلة, حالق شعره, من الاخر شكله دكر نيك و بابتسامة و شفايف بنت وسخة! فقلت افتح معاه اى حوار; سألته(بشرمطة شوية) لو ينفع يغسلى العربية و عرفت اسمه ايه و ان الناس بتقول له عبده.<br />طلعت البيت و مش فى دماغى حاجة لأن انا عمرى ما عملت حاجة مع اللى زى عبده, كانوا دايما بالنسبة لى بيبقوا مجرد فانتازى اتخيلها و اهيج عليها(الفانتازى) مع نفسى و اجيبهم بس عمرى ما جربت اعمل معاهم حاجة لانه كنت بحس ان شكلى مش الشكل اللى يعجبهم, كنت بحس دايما انهم بيحبوا البييض المقلوزين المدلعين و الجيرلى شوية, ده غير انى ما عملتش حاجة قبل كده مع اى حد مش جاي اصلا!<br /><br />تانى يوم نزلت لقيت العربية ما اتغسلتش لسه و لقيت عبده عند بوابة الجراج, فلومته على عدم غسيلها, فاعتذر لى و مسح الازاز و قال لى بليل هيغسلهالى كلها و خرجت بعديها مع اصحابى اعمل شوبنج و بعدين رجعت البيت تانى عشان استنى خالى لما يجي و اقعد معاه شوية قبل ما اخرج اسهر, فدخلت الجراج و لقيت عبده فقلت له انى زعلان منه اوى عشان ما غسلش العربية امبارح فلقيته فتح باب العربية و ركب جانبى و قال لى ادخل عشان يركنلي العربية, استغربت شوية بس انتهزت الفرصة و سألته على رقم موبايله عشان اكلمه باليل و انا راجع عشان يعرف العربية مركونة فين و يغسلها.<br />ركنت فى حتة ضالمة شوية و لقيت عبده بيسألنى لو معايا سيجارة, فاديته واحدة بحسن نية, راح هو مطلع حتة حشيش صغيرة و قالى هيعمل معايا احلى واجب....انا شفت منظر عبده و هو راكب جانبى و نور الصالون منعكس على وشه و الحشيش و السجاير على حجره, هجت فى ثانية زى المراهق اللى هيعمل سكس لأول مرة فى حياته!<br />طلعنا برة العربية و سموكنا الݘوينت و قعدت افتح معاه مواضيع على الجواز و الهيجان و التعب اللى الشباب فيه الخ الخ الخ و حكى لى انه كان سهران مرة مع واحد ليبى و كان الليبى ده جايب شراميط بس هو(عبده) مالوش فى السكة دى...المهم خلصنا الݘوينت و قال لى ان الموضوع ده يبقى سر بيننا, قلت له اكيد و قلت له كمان انى هكلمه و انا مروح باليل عشان نسموك ݘوينت سوا فى العربية!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmnaUKB9w2yVEjXx4lD-VFqQof5KhbWvRssxHm8I_4R8tdDeXL4n9OTsbqIkoU5ZfFxp4ydOQt_778McR0st-__wTEfxfjOPGoQ1SgungUQsHSLhfNL0rMnSMyd-HJrja4XXGp89IO1oQM/s1600/10072010273.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 274px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmnaUKB9w2yVEjXx4lD-VFqQof5KhbWvRssxHm8I_4R8tdDeXL4n9OTsbqIkoU5ZfFxp4ydOQt_778McR0st-__wTEfxfjOPGoQ1SgungUQsHSLhfNL0rMnSMyd-HJrja4XXGp89IO1oQM/s320/10072010273.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493112166822551490" /></a><br /><br />قابلت صاحبى و حكيتله على اللى حصل و انا مش مصدق! فقلت له انى لازم اعمل اى حاجة مع عبده و ان الموضوع هيبقى سهل دلوقتى بعد الخطوة اللى عبده عملها معايا, بس انا ما كنتش عايز يبقى فى فرصة لاى احراج بينى و بينه(عبده) لو اتشرمط عليه وجها لوجه!<br />فقلت انا و صاحبى ان احنا نكلم عبده من موبايله(صاحبى) و نتشرمط عليه و نشوف ايه نظامه!<br />و حصل اللى كان نفسى فيه! قعدنا نتشرمط عليه لحد ما عبده قال لصاحبى "تعالى و انا هظبتك و ارووحك مبسوط على الاخر بس انت تستحمل زبرى!"<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">المشهد الثانى</span><br />حششت مع صاحبى و جهزت ݘوينت عشان اسموكه مع عبده, و دخلت الجراج لقيت عبده قاعد على كرسى و فاتح رجله و زبره شكله يهبل فى البنطلون و عينه لمعت اول ما شافنى و دخل العربية و على وشه ابتسامة وسخة نيك!<br />قلت له تعالى نركن فى حتة متدارية عشان نبقى براحتنا, فركنت جنب ميكروباص و قدامى سور و فى جنبى التانى سور. عبده قالى اطفى نور العربية فطفيته و ولعت الݘوينت و سألنى عملت ايه النهارده و ايه نظامى...الخ الخ فسألته اذا كان فى ازازه ميا فى الباب اللى جنبه, و روحت موطى عليه عشان اشوفها موجودة ولا لأ و روحت محسس على زوبره و انا طالع, فعبده ضحك و قال لى عادى و خد راحتك..فقعدت العب له فى زوبره شوية من فوق البنطلون فقال لى تعالى نطلع بره العربية.<br />فطلعت و روحت له, قال لى لف فلفيت و بقى هو واقف فى ضهرى بين العربية و الميكروبس, قال لى ظيزك حلوة نيك و سألنى عايزه؟ فلت له اسنتى عايز امصه ليك الأول, فشدنى من ايدى و جابنى ورا الميكروباص, روت نازل على ركبى على الارض اللى كانت حواليها زبالة و قلبى عمال يدق فى الثوانى اللى بنزل فيها عشان امص له, راح منزل البنطلون شوية و خرجلى زوبره و ماكنش لابس اندر وير و كان زوبره كبير و على الغير المتوقع كان نضيف اووووى حتى كان حالق شعر زوبره...انا شوفت المنظر ده و بصيت لزوبره و للفوطه البرتقالى بتاعات الغسيل اللى فى جيبه و بصيت لفوق على وشه و على المكان حوالينا, حسيت انى فى فيلم حين ميسرة! كنت فى قمة هياجانى, فقعدت امصله و بعدين اخد نفس من الݘوينت و بعدين امصله و فضلت على كده لحد ما شدنى لقوق و لفنى و تف على زوبره عشان يدخله, انا روحت فاتح طيزى بايد و بسموك بالايد التانية و فجأة حسيت بألم مميت فى طيزى فصرخت و زقيته عبده لورا و بعدين لقيت صوت الكلاب جاى من بعيد و بيقرب ناحيتنا! فلبست شورتى بسرعة و عبده وقفنى وراه و قعد يبعد الكلاب عنى و قال لى تعالى نشوف حتة تانية!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNGQWfPCvlyZ-3Oib18FVgk5Dzby2TtgrjS7G7Iy_XktxrCn2sxdSejmoq3kyELrS1ZMYi7r6e2u2JsIgeryBTMuGyXGJDIt4LsZLQGDgnEynez1ePjYh47JB-Eklefp5QbGvQGlbRRkCH/s1600/10072010275.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNGQWfPCvlyZ-3Oib18FVgk5Dzby2TtgrjS7G7Iy_XktxrCn2sxdSejmoq3kyELrS1ZMYi7r6e2u2JsIgeryBTMuGyXGJDIt4LsZLQGDgnEynez1ePjYh47JB-Eklefp5QbGvQGlbRRkCH/s320/10072010275.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493112334672386642" /></a><br /><br />فضلت ماشى وراه جوة الجراج بندور على حتة ينيكنى فيها, اتكلمنا شوية و سألنى ليه ما قلتلوش من اول ما جيت على طلبى فقلت له ما كنتش اعرف ان طلبى عندك و بعدين سألنى اذا كنت نمت مع رجالة كتير قبل كده فقلت له لأ مش كتير اوى هم كام واحد و خلاص..فضلنا ماشيين و بنتكلم و لقيته وقف عند اوضة ضالمة و قال لى ادخل جوا بس ما تعملش صوت, سألته و انا مرعوب(و زوبرى واقف فى نفس الوقت) هو فى حد جوة؟ قال لى لأ بس ما تعملش صوت و دخل هو و انا بصيت حواليا و دخلت وقفلت الباب ورايا و كانت الاوضة ضالمة كحل فقلت له عبده انا مش شايف حاجة! فشدنى من ايدى و نزلنى على زوبره و قال لى مص ياض! قعدت امصله بتاع 5 دقايق كده و بعدين راح مقومنى و لفنى تانى و دفس زوبره جوايا و فضل ثابت من غير حركة ثوانى و بعدين ابتدا ينيك على خفيف و احنا واقفين و هو حاضنى فشخ و بإيد بيلعبلى فى زوبرى و بالإيد التانية ماسكنى من كتفى و شاددنى عليه!<br />انا حسيت انى فى الجنة! بس نزلت على الارض تانى لما افتكرت انى بتناك بيرباك! فقلت له مش قادر يا عبده خرجه فاستنى دقيقة و بعدين خرجه و فال لى اي خدمة, تمام كده يا بيه؟ قلت له استنى اجيبهم, فاستنى كده دقيقتين بس انا ما عرفتش اجيبهم و انا واقف على رجلى و <br />موجوع فقلت له خلاص يلا بينا!<br /><br />قال لى انه متجوز اتنين فضحكت و قلت له يا بختهم بيك فقال لى بس انا على كده عايز علبة لبن عشان اكفيك انت و ام العيال! و بعدين سألنى لو عايز حد تانى يظبطنى معاه! انا طلعت الجنة تانى بعد الجملتين دول و ضحكت و قلت له ماشى بس ابقى وريهولى الاول و انا اقول لك رأي, عشان انا بحب اللى معايا يبقى شكله دكر كده زيك, فضحك و قال لى ماشى يا بيه!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">المشهد الثالث</span><br />تانى يوم لقيت عبده بيسألنى معايا حشيش ولا لأ و اذا اعرف اجيبله واحدة بنت يظبطها و كده فقلت له ان شاء الله و قلت له احتمال اجيب حشيش بالليل, و بعدين و انا بتمشى للعمارة قعدت اقول لنفسى هو هيعد يقرفنى بقى فى الطالعة و النازلة ولا ايه, لأ انا لازم افهمه انى مش عايز وجع دماغ!<br />و طلعت البيت و اتفقت مع اصحابى هنتقابل امتى و هنسهر فين النهادره, بعدين دخلت استحميت و لبست نفس الشورت اللى كنت لابسه لعبده امبارح و قعدت اعمل شعرى قدام المرايا, فجأة حسيت انى ميرﭭت من فيلم "<a href="http://www.elcinema.com/work/wk1011245/">بئر الحرمان</a>" لما كانت بتنزل كل ليلة بنفس الفستان الاحمر و تنام مع السواق فى الجراج!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSUzkSbvnwdGor5SLnESG7DiFLXvCVSP8mVuTXN9cv7_uyUHW4rsRCYE_mhVQxgmXPKStAWPLdZUfhwLe7ajOf4uRtkbKTbhvk17LS5mcAVhn_y0SilJeS6OAitvohXtT2WCj1qaUmU1p0/s1600/10072010272.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 226px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSUzkSbvnwdGor5SLnESG7DiFLXvCVSP8mVuTXN9cv7_uyUHW4rsRCYE_mhVQxgmXPKStAWPLdZUfhwLe7ajOf4uRtkbKTbhvk17LS5mcAVhn_y0SilJeS6OAitvohXtT2WCj1qaUmU1p0/s320/10072010272.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493112471480721170" /></a><br /><br />المهم نزلت و محضر فى دماغى الكلام اللى هقوله لعبده لو جه يصدعنى تانى, بس لقيته بيعرفنى على واحد اسمه رمضان على اساس ان رمضان ده يطلعلى العربية من الركنة, و لقيت رمضان ده مبسوط بنفسه اوى و بيبصلى و بيغمزلى, فطلعت بالعربية و رجعت لعبده و قلت له ايه يا عبده ده؟ قال لى ايه رأيك يا بيه فى رمضان؟ قلت له ده شكله مش حلو و كبير و رفيع فى نفسه كده, ايه يا عم ده! قال لى بس ده كورباك يا بيه! قلت لأ بلاش قرف! انا قلت لك انا عايز حد دكر زيك كده مش اللى انت جايبهولى ده! فضحك و قال لى خلاص ماشى يا بيه, و بعدين قلت له انا مسافر بكرا و مش عارف هاجى تانى امتى, قال لى ماشى سلام يا صاحبى و ابتسم و قال لى كلمنى لما تيجى اسكندرية تانى!<br /><br />و سافرت و انا على امل انى اشوفه تانى لما اروح اسكندرية المرة الجاية, هدخل الجراج و اركن و عبده يركب(العربية مش حاجة تانية) و تبقى احسن عشرة جنيه دفعتها فى حياتى!<br /><br />ملحوظة: عبده و رمضان مش موجودين فى اى صورة من الصور بس فى صورة للأوضة<br />ملحوظة 2: العربية لسة ما اتغسلتش لحد دلوقتىIce Queerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17186169029028030641noreply@blogger.com26