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Friday, March 19, 2010


My poisonous nature is eating me inside-out and poisoning everyone around me.
Why do I keep pushing limits? What draws the line between seriousness & fun?
Is it normal to “over-dose” your friends?
Beating yourself up is self-criticism?
I don’t like criticism, especially constructive ones. Do you think I don’t know my flaws already?
Does our fear of not belonging anywhere that make us stuck with wrong choices?
What you see as desperation for your acceptance is nothing but my trials for possessing you.
Why do I keep going after it although I know that once I’ll have, I won’t like it and that it’s not like how it appeals from the outside
How I didn’t notice all that time that being popular is different than being social?
What is identity?
Social mistakes are pricey?
People don’t like it when you see right through them and reveal their inner fears & weaknesses.
Why the intimidation?
Why buttering up & sweet-coating?
There is a difference between wanting something and needing something.
Guilt is the number one negative chi producer. You let that fester, it will age you.
Am I self-fellating my own curse?
To really know someone is to have loved and hated him in turn?
The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.
Please don't mistake my anal retentiveness for actual affection.
Do you get exhausted too from yourself sometimes? All that plotting, scheming & venom becomes wearisome at some point, no?
Switching & channeling your emotions, thoughts, desires & projections between different biospheres or even same biosphere, kills your brain cells & your soul gradually?
Your holier-than-thou attitude brings the worst in me!
When will you ever take off your judgmental blinder and stop being some kind of a moral paragon for once?
Did it ever occur to you that maybe it's you who needs me to be angry at you?
Social butterflies are twisted schizoids.
It's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along?
People may compromise/adapt but not change.

I don't have to make any sense to you...!


  1. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

    People may compromise/adapt but not change.

    I so loved those, touched me..


  2. Congratulations darling, you're sounding more and more like the morbid eccentric queen :D

  3. Gee! I donno you so I donno if I can take this as a compliment or as an insult? =P

  4. I hope you feel better now! Also, thank you for the compliment!

  5. Well, you know you love me xoxo

  6. Sara: Yeah I did feel better actually right after I wrote the post =) Thank u and u r welcome

    Anonymous: hehe =P

  7. My desktop is full of text documents I've created when I feel like writting something down, thoughts, realisations, confessions, that sort of stuff. I type what comes across my mind, title the file and never open it again, just reading the titles makes me not want to go down that road again. What I'm trying to say is that I think you're really brave to be able to type those points down, go over them maybe once more to post them and finally posting them.

    I couldn't have put down the points that I could relate to in a better way :).

    N.B. I like the new layout and colours.
    N.B. In my next visit to cairo, you have to introduce me to your dealer :p

  8. "The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image."... I'm not sure that that's the beginning of love, more a perfect endpoint that takes years to reach.

    Compromise seems to be hard for som people, of course scorpios don't need to think about it, it comes naturally, like everything!


  9. Ninja:
    Thank you sweetie for your comment and you should really post those documents on your blog too! (also I admire a clean desktop hehe)

    Glad you like the new layout and will c u when u come to Cairo :P

    When you start to love someone, you will let them be themselves =)

    Scorpios rock! hehe

  10. I hope you r enjoying it in your closet! =)

  11. Interesting blogger name and blog!
    Thanks for passing by! =)

  12. I just loved your post.. It has been a while since I was intrigued by a post so keep going and you should know that all of us feel like that at some point in time and place :) So do not mind it..

  13. Sou! Missed you! r u back to blogging btw?
    Thanks for ur comment

  14. bon soir!

    well.. this post made me laugh / stop and stare / freak out... dont ask me why!

    do we really know our flaws? all of them? sure there are some flaws that we dunno about, or things that we do normally yet they annoy others...

    "what is idendity" Huuuh !

    it's not always rainbows and butterflies...

    I'm speachless... then i guess I'll start to Scream then Scream more

    do I make sense?

  15. you perfectly make sense! =)

    By time, you get to know all your flaws


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