Objects in me are closer than they appear

You were sitting on a sandy white beach, the sun warming your skin. As the waves slowly broke in the distance, they sent ripples to the shoreline to softly caress your Achilles. So, Iyoden, do you remember the first conversation you had with your broken reflection on water? When you noticed how much you prefer to stand on earth with heat and air, meters away from the façade of the water underworld. Of course I remember, it was when I first tried to get outside my idyllic fantasy self and take a good look at my over-developed ego from an outsider direction.
And it helped you when you felt as though you had fallen into a rut, becoming a bit anti-social, choosing to hibernate below the simplicity rather than socialize for different reasons; maybe you had a lot to think about, or a lot on your agenda. But all of that was usually by choice. Your fire never really faded but when I, your reflection, stopped fanning it for a while it did begin to lose some of its heat.

But your sensuality is still strong and expresses itself in all life areas. You equally enjoy the pleasures of the senses and those of the mind and you never waste a single bit of a sensation. You take the time to enjoy life, to dream and to follow your imagination. You do not allow anything to disturb these moments of relaxation and calm. Your basic balance stems from these privileged moments where you can daydream at will and “have your head in the clouds”. Many people do not understand such absences and their meaning, which is to regain strength, develop and rejuvenate. These people readily describe you with such unflattering terms as apathy and nonchalance. Sadly they don't learn to distinguish between sensuality and emotions...

You see, when you step outside yourself, you realize that you are the unreliable narrator in the story of your life. And this is because you're unaware of how unaware you are. Don't you know that reality is a construction of the brain and you don't passively receive the outside world, you actively construct your experience moment by moment?
Iyoden, people may wink at me, dance or fornicate with me but they think of sociopathy once dared to talk and open up to me(ME, the part of everyone's universe). But how would they think differently when they believe that their opinions are the result of years of rational, objective analysis? Even though in reality, they are the result of years of paying attention to information that confirmed what they believed, while ignoring information that challenged, provoked and pushed their preconceived notions.

Iyoden, they are not ready yet for more conversations and revelations to come. They're not like us, they tend to ignore random chance when the results seem meaningful or when they want a random event to have a meaningful cause. Why are they stupidly pulled into the things that line up, and are similar or coincidental, but they ignore everything else thats not?!
Why you keep asking me that Iyoden? I don't claim having all the answers like other almightyS do.

I believe they're ready but they just need to start cleansing their subconscious, and we both know how. So let's go again!

To be put to an end...

Play dead

Good morning dear Iyoden, how are we feeling today? Is it still all in your hands? Well, for starters you should stop finding it weird that you are talking with your reflection in the mirror, don't you think I know how bad you are with understanding and expressing your emotions? So maybe you'd like to let me be your mirror to the other world, together we will mimic it all....Now...whose mind shall I fuck with today....?

Iyoden, I am a creature of water, a petit vulcan, hot like Venus, a vessel-ing rainy union of fire and earth, airy is one of the things that I'm not...And in order for him to make a connection with another creature, he needs either passively or actively vessel it out/in. Some call it parasitic, others feel it a passionate infusion but most find it sadistic. But you see, Iyoden, this is how you were created. Your earthy upbringing dozed your emotional understanding like a snail that's protecting a precious tactile Diamant and your firefull distant metaphorsis completed your apathetic nature, making you this fearful fearless person that you are now. Perfect or not, that's not for me to decide, nein?

All what Iyoden needs is just a vessel, with one he can channel whatever moon mood he's in and mentally act out a déjà-interpretation. He consciously plays on their fears and insecurities and some manage to subconsciously play on his, but the key remains in how quick can you figure out what you see like; is it like an analysis that's flowing flawlessly? Or a simple surface but turbid?

But why wouldn't you be able to read and feel the dimensions of what's crossing your eyes? After all your hands are trained to feel the scarry knods beneath the skin and your job is to fix abomination or manipulate it. A mechanic of humans, am I?


To be continued, or not. Only Mirror knows...

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