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Sunday, November 25, 2012

Objects in me are closer than they appear


You were sitting on a sandy white beach, the sun warming your skin. As the waves slowly broke in the distance, they sent ripples to the shoreline to softly caress your Achilles. So, Iyoden, do you remember the first conversation you had with your broken reflection on water? When you noticed how much you prefer to stand on earth with heat and air, meters away from the façade of the water underworld. Of course I remember, it was when I first tried to get outside my idyllic fantasy self and take a good look at my over-developed ego from an outsider direction.
And it helped you when you felt as though you had fallen into a rut, becoming a bit anti-social, choosing to hibernate below the simplicity rather than socialize for different reasons; maybe you had a lot to think about, or a lot on your agenda. But all of that was usually by choice. Your fire never really faded but when I, your reflection, stopped fanning it for a while it did begin to lose some of its heat.

But your sensuality is still strong and expresses itself in all life areas. You equally enjoy the pleasures of the senses and those of the mind and you never waste a single bit of a sensation. You take the time to enjoy life, to dream and to follow your imagination. You do not allow anything to disturb these moments of relaxation and calm. Your basic balance stems from these privileged moments where you can daydream at will and “have your head in the clouds”. Many people do not understand such absences and their meaning, which is to regain strength, develop and rejuvenate. These people readily describe you with such unflattering terms as apathy and nonchalance. Sadly they don't learn to distinguish between sensuality and emotions...

You see, when you step outside yourself, you realize that you are the unreliable narrator in the story of your life. And this is because you're unaware of how unaware you are. Don't you know that reality is a construction of the brain and you don't passively receive the outside world, you actively construct your experience moment by moment?
Iyoden, people may wink at me, dance or fornicate with me but they think of sociopathy once dared to talk and open up to me(ME, the part of everyone's universe). But how would they think differently when they believe that their opinions are the result of years of rational, objective analysis? Even though in reality, they are the result of years of paying attention to information that confirmed what they believed, while ignoring information that challenged, provoked and pushed their preconceived notions.

Iyoden, they are not ready yet for more conversations and revelations to come. They're not like us, they tend to ignore random chance when the results seem meaningful or when they want a random event to have a meaningful cause. Why are they stupidly pulled into the things that line up, and are similar or coincidental, but they ignore everything else thats not?!
Why you keep asking me that Iyoden? I don't claim having all the answers like other almightyS do.

I believe they're ready but they just need to start cleansing their subconscious, and we both know how. So let's go again!

To be put to an end...

2 comments:

  1. Wow! You are transforming right in front of our eyes ;D

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  2. Agreed :D

    'He had come there to read. Two or three books lie open,
    books by historians, by poets...
    But he read for barely ten minutes,
    then gave it up, falling half asleep on the sofa.
    He's completely devoted to books but
    he's twenty three and very good looking,
    and this afternoon Eros entered
    his ideal flesh... his lips
    An erotic warmth entered
    his completely lovely flesh,
    with no ridiculous shame about the form the pleasure took...'

    (Cavafy, Alexandrian poet, 1924)

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