Don't you feel sometimes that you want to pause your life, take a deeper look and record many things you are experimenting even the utterly trivial ones of it? Well, this is the place/space where I'm able to do that and steam out my thoughts, confessions, observations and events that had an impact on my life in a way or two!
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Thursday, July 24, 2008
What the fuck has Jesus to do with it?!
I believe in God, I believe in Karma, I believe in the good in people, I believe that my freedom stops at the borders of other people's freedom, I believe that life is too short to argue about what is wrong and what is right for me and what’s right for other people, I only believe in Agnosticism and it feels good to believe in something!
Ibby is another fresh gay guy who is new into the lame gay dating websites and as I'm a magnet to this breed of guys lately, he smoothly found his way to my MSN list, impressed/trapped me by how well educated, well brought-up, stunning looking he is! And as he is new to this, he wasn't that self-confident with guys like the rest of his breed.
We chatted for 2 weeks or something during my exams without even seeing his face picture, everything was great, the online chemistry, the jokes, the indirect sex talk…etc Yes, I was so comfortable & so being myself with him which made me patient with him until I finished my exams and got a new laptop so I finally saw his face pictures and was mesmerized by how good-looking he is!
So we finally met after many long phone calls, I usually see failure coming when I chat or talk a lot with someone before we meet, anyway there he was, taller than me (which rarely happens), trimmed beard topped by edible lips and dazzling grayish green-colored eyes accompanied with eye blinding smile! He parked his car and got into mine, we cruised in that kinda remote area, I pulled over at my favorite place where I go to when I feel lonely or depressed or both so I can see Cairo from another point of view, he loved the spot, he sent me some shy vibes/ messages that he wants to kiss me , after a while we got back into the car, he stole a kiss while I was driving in the main street, it was cheesy and risky but very sexy and then his questions cloud hit my mystery cloud and it started to heavily rain !
Do you have gay friends? How many guys did you sleep with? How many years have you been into this? oh my god you are so young for all of that! Don't you get scared to put your pictures online? Are your parents religious or Kuffar(Agonists/Spiritual) like you? Wow! you are so brave to come out to your close straight male & female friends! you should stop smoking as it is bad for your health, OMG you smoke up like my ex. boyfriend? His hot cloud didn't last much in front of my cold cloud, soon enough the weather was clear again after my cold diplomatic and maybe shocking answers and explanations, he told me that he is searching for love with an innocent future boyfriend, I told him you can't search for love but you can enjoy your life, have sex, make friends and love will knock your door if you are lucky enough.... Give me a break and get over yourself PERIOD!
After 2 days, He invited me over at his place, he cooked lasagna and steak for lunch and chocolate pudding for desert, we dined downstairs in the dinning room, the food was surprisingly good until he imitated Martha Stewart while he is decorating the pudding with Maltesers saying "and now it’s time to put my little pearls" so I lost my appetite!
We went to watch "Le Fabuleux Destin D’Amélie Poulain" movie which we didn't continue as he wasn't that interested in watching so he switched to "mean girls" movie on MBC2, not the movie I expected to watch on a date but anyway it's always fun to watch that movie and it made me discover that he likes the girls' boobs and that he wants to try to have a girlfriend and that he wants to have a family!!!!
Anyway, I knew that it won't work so I thought of sleeping with him and turn him into a number among the numbers which he was afraid of & keen to know! And there it was, the big surprise, he has a small dick, he wanted to bareback me, I refused so it went soft and he was a top wannabe! No kissing as he thinks it is too personal! and he melted down as soon as my finger conquered his love tunnel!
Donc c’est fini! We(me and my cock) wanted different things and he hated my Agnosticism, so from now on no more " new" guys for me and no more guys who suffer from religious issues!
Newton once said, if two bodies interact, their forces are equal in magnitude and opposite in direction!
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hey N , this my first time reading ur blog and i have to say that it is very well written .
ReplyDeleteKeep it up and cant wait for ur next post ...................Cheers!
Thanks dear, I'm flattered :)
ReplyDeleteOfficially addicted.
ReplyDeleteKeep it up, I have been reading every post as you write them :). It's very honest, and your frustrations are universal, trust me!
ReplyDeletepure crap
ReplyDeleteana 7ases en el comments de kolaha fabricated besara7a
mesh ma32ool feeh nas keda fel donia
"I believe in God"
ReplyDeleteya sidy alph baraka, 3o2bal ma neshrab sharbatak wenta metgawez w fy beit el 3adal keda :D
alla howa enta hatetgawez ya nordine ? :D
out of curiosity do u ever think of having a family and how all of this would be possible with the way u are going?
ReplyDelete^ Nop I don't think at all of having a family! and also I don't want to have kids!
ReplyDeletei love the way you show no mercy
ReplyDeletean inspiration to everyone out there!!
You don't want to have kids ?
ReplyDeleteCorrection, you are incapable of having children :D
why do u not want to have a family life? Do u ever think that u might actually change ur mind?
ReplyDelete^ You can never know! =)
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